Unbearable (Completed)

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March 22, 2007

Beyoncé

"Beyoncé it's not what you think." She only stared at him waiting for him to continue.

"We are not a couple and we never have been. Bey we were only fuck buddies that's it. The last time we had sex was two days before Tim's and Kelly's Funeral. The days before that I was with Sienna. She's just a fuck buddy too. You-"

"So what am I? Huh, a fuck buddy as well?"

"No! Bey please. I never meant to hurt you. I promise that day we had sex although it was the wrong time it was the best I ever had."

"Oh well excuse me. How flattering I was your best." Beyoncé mimicked and rolled her eyes.

"Dammit Bey would fucking listen! I love you okay. I've always loved you, but knowing you don't want me hurts my heart! I don't know how to acted when You reject me. Nicki told me what happened. I never sent Camilla to your job, I never proposed to her and I spoke to her today she never mention a pregnancy. I never had unprotected sex with her nor Sienna I swear. You are so much more to me than you know it. I hate myself for what happened to you years ago and I know you hate me too and you have every right. But-"

"Shawn I-"

"Let me finished!" She shook her head and let him start again.

"But I made a promise minutes ago that I don't know if I could keep. I know I said that if you hated me I would leave you alone but I can't. We have a child to raise and I don't plan on being a deadbeat. I gonna be better Bey regardless if you want me or not. I can't be like my dad and I don't ever want to feel like him." He truthfully told her. He wasn't going to continue to be like that. He loved her and finally told her that he'd done his part now it was time for her to believe it. Looking into her eyes he began to cry because he could see her hurt.

"Shawn I-" she couldn't bring herself to say it. They just weren't on that level in her eyes. She didn't know if she loved him as much. She still needed time to work on herself so right now she just wanted to focus on Izzy and her job she didn't need additional baggage right now.

"I need time." She told him. He would just have to except that. It wasn't rejection it was just an "I'm not Ready yet." Which was fine with him, it gave him time to build what they had years ago. He was going to show her that he was worth the risk. Everyday until she was ready he was going to work for her.

"I understand, could I stay awhile I know Izzy is on her way I want to spend time with her." She hesitated for a moment but eventually gave in.

"Yes but she has to stay here." She didn't trust him totally because of Camilla's little show so Izzy wasn't leaving with him.

"Okay." It aggravated him just a little but she had a right because of the situation.
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"You have to pinky promise this time uncle Jayjay!" Izzy giggled, for some reason she always seemed happy with Jay and Beyoncé honestly envied that but she was working to build her personal relationship.

"I pinky Promise busy Izzy." He said. Beyoncé had been listening to everything. She only hoped he was serious this time.

She was in the kitchen preparing dinner. She wasn't the best cook but before Izzy she didn't have to because she lived alone. Now it was different Izzy didn't like a lot of take out. She loved pizza but that was about it.

"What you cooking?" Grabbing her chest she turned around slowly and smacked Shawn.

"Shit, don't do that!" He only laughed and Izzy covered her mouth.