Through it Together- Demi Lovato

Part 32

I just sigh. "I'm sorry. I need to be stronger. I don't understand what happened. Everything just went downhill. What are we going to do?" I say to Maddie and she just looks at me.

Demi's POV
"Can't you give her something else?!" Marissa yells at the doctor. After Maddie decided to tell Marissa that I was completely fine with not taking the meds and the reason why, Marissa has been fighting with the doctor to give me something else.

"Ma'am I'm really sorry but there's only two options. She goes on the pain meds or she doesn't." The doctor explains, attempting to be as nice as possible.

Marissa sighs and puts her hands on her head, looking up at the ceiling, thinking.

You're such a burden on her. You should have just died.

Stop it. Stop talking to me in my head leave me alone.

You know I'm right Demi.

My demons taunt me as I sit there clenching my jaw, silent tears rolling down my cheeks. Maddie looks up at me when she feels my tear drop on her shoulder and gives me a confused look. She mouths 'what's wrong'.

"M-Make it stop." I whisper loud enough for just Maddie to hear. I don't have to do any more explaining because Maddie hops off the bed and makes her way over to Marissa, bending down and whispering something in her ear. That is about the only not completely bad thing about Maddie and I dealing with the same stuff. She understands me and what I'm talking about.

Mar's eyes flash with worry as Maddie a whispers in her ear and she jumps up and comes over to me. The doctor awkwardly just stands by the door watching this whole scene unfold. Mar grabs my hand and looks me in the eyes. "Don't listens to them sweety. They're lying, Dems. I promise you they're lying. Drown them out. Ignore them." She quietly says to me and I nod, tears continuing to roll down my cheeks.

Marissa turns to the doctor. "We'll just have her go without the meds." She says flashing a small smile and the doctor nods and walks out. Marissa turns back to me. "I didn't want either choice, but I cannot risk you being so easily accessible to pain killers, and falling down that hole again. Just please Dem, please never do this again." Mar says to me, her voice cracking at the end of her sentence, and tears building up in her eyes.

I nod. "I'm sorry" I say quietly, trying to hug her but nearly screaming in pain when I moved my arms.

Just then Marissa gasps and I look at her confused. "Demi... you..." she slowly starts off. Me what? What about me?

"What Mar?" I ask and she bites her lip.

"You... you ruined four years." She says and right as the words leave her mouth it all hits me like a ton of bricks. I guess I didn't even think about that at all. I have to start all over again. But what's the point? I already ruined it I might as well not try anymore. I break down into sobs and Marissa just holds me while tears roll down her cheeks too. Maddie stands next to the bed and I reach my hand out to her carefully.

"It's okay baby we'll get through this." Mar says to me as she rubs her thumb over my hand. Just then a doctor walks in.

"Ms. Lovato? We have some news about your sister Dallas Lovato." He says, looking at me sympathetically. Oh no.