Spencer is leaving tomorrow morning really early so tonight we were just kind of laying around. Yes we had sex twice and it was going
"You know what I just realized?" He asked running his fingers up and down my back as I laid on his chest
"Hmm?"
"I wasn't wearing a condom anytime we had sex" I blushed and chuckled looking up at him
"I'm on birth control" he sighed. But than raised his brow at me
"Why are you on birth control?" He asked
"I started taking them when we almost had sex at your parents house" he nodded and rested my ear back on his chest hearing his heard beat
"What made you start trusting me?" I thought for a second
"I was just attacked to you and everyone that I talked to told me to give you a chance and I kinda knew you weren't going to hurt me" I told him the truth
"I'm glad, because I finally get to hold you in my arms every night I go to sleep. Well not when I'm gone but right now" I smiled and nodded
"Do you ever wanna have kids?" Wow. I tensed up
"What?" That's a sudden question
"I mean not right now obviously because our relationship just started, but in the future?" He asked
"I mean yea eventually some day yea"
"I wanna have a baby girl" he told me
"Really?" I changed position to where my head was rested there his arm pit was and looking up at him. He turned his head and looked down at me
"Is it really that hard to believe?" He chuckles and i smiled
"No, it's just, I thought you would want a boy first to teach him everything"
"That would also be great also. I'm fine with whatever I get first but I eventually want a baby girl" awe so cute. I smiled and blushed
"You look like you like that answer"
"I mean you look like that guy to want all boys to be football players or run the business later on" he chuckled
"I do want that but I wanna have a little princess" I nodded and smiled as he got more comfortable with me in his arms.
"What are you thinking about?"
"I just don't think I'd be a good mom with my trust issues" I've never told anyone that not even Lindsay "I won't trust their friends for them to go to parties and all that stuff, than I won't be a cool mom and who doesn't want a cool mom?" He chucked and gripped my butt then down to my thighs wrapping my leg around his waist
"Serena you down yourself a lot, I don't like it. I don't like see you all sad and stuff. I love seeing you smile and happy, that's why I do things to make that make you feel happy and great" I blushed "Your going to make a great mother to our kids and don't ever doubt that. Yea you have a little trust issues but that doesn't stop you from being quote in quote cool mom. You'll be a sexy, beautiful, loving, caring mother that any of our children could ask for" I don't know why but I just got all sad and hid my face in his chest so he couldn't see me cry
"Wait what happened?" He asked, I could head the concern in his voice as he tried to make me look at him, I don't like crying in front of people it just makes me feel so weak
"Nothing" I whispered
"Look at me" I shook my head "please" I sighed and looked up at him and he looked worried and concerned
"What's wrong?"
"It's just, you show me so much love and affection and I've never had this before from anyone that I've been with. I don't even show you this much love and affection and I just feel bad" he whipped my face and kissed my red checks
"Why do you even wanna be with me, I don't call you babe, I'm probably the worst person that you've slept with, I show you no sighs of good affection. I'm boring and basic" he pushed his eyebrows together
"There you go with downing yourself. You don't have to call me babe for me to like you, there are other reasons why I like you, sure it is going to take you a while before you start loving me and everything because of what you went through. To tell you the honest truth Serena, you are the best person that I've slept with so don't ever think you aren't. Stop guessing yourself with me, I love you for who you are, you are everything but boring and basic. In fact that is one of the reasons why I love you because your nothing like I'm used you. Your different, smart, unique, beautiful, sexy, caring, sensitive, honest, your an amazing girlfriend, hell you are an amazing wife to me and your just everything I could ask for" wow, I knew he felt that way but just hearing him say it again just made my heart jump with excitement. I blushed and smiled to myself, I looked up at him and kissed him.
It felt good, it was passionate and filled with emotions. I pulled away and rested my head backs on his chest
•morning•
I felt Spencer moving around trying to get me out of his arms so he could get up. I groaned and held his arms around me tighter. I heard him chuckle and sigh
"Babe, I have to get up or I'm going to miss my flight" I don't even have work today!
"Please stay for 5 more minutes" I mumbled through my raspy sleep voice
"I can't. We both know that 5 minutes will turn to 20 to 30 to and hour and than I'll for sure miss my flight" he was kissing my ear as I groaned rolling over and into the closest pillow pulling it in between my legs. He got up and was putting his new clothes on packing up his stuff
"Can I get a kiss?" He asked. I didn't open my eyes just leant up from the pillow pushing my lips out to give him a kiss. We shared a kiss and a hug before he left
Than I went back to bed by myself
