My Little Swan

Should I?

Chapter 3

Disclaimer: I don't own OUAT or any of its characters edited by Lexi-TheEvilRegal

Regina's heart was aching, the small blonde clinging to her with such sadness. It took everything in her to pull away, she was filled with pain as she told Emma that she would be okay without her. Kissing the blonde's forehead, she didn't wanna pull away, she almost couldn't. But she had to. Watching the small blonde chase after her car, seeing her fall to the ground, Regina's heart broke and she cried. The older woman clutched onto Emma's necklace that the blonde gave her, the tree that held so much meaning to the young brunette.

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She was pulled out of that memory by Emma's voice. "I missed you more." Emma whispered into her hair. The blonde student didn't want to let go and honestly neither did Regina. "I was so scared last night. I thought you forgot me." Emma whispered and the brunette fought back her tears. She felt like such an asshole for forgetting her little blonde.

She pulled back enough to look into the blonde's eyes. "You look so different Em.....I just needed to be sure it was you. You grew up without me." Regina said reaching up and touching her cheek, running her fingers down Emma's jaw line. The younger woman's eyes flutter closed and her breath hitch just slightly. Regina couldn't help, but smile because of the effect she had on Emma.

Her eyes slowly reopened and she looked down into brown orbs. "Go out to dinner with me." The student asked softly, cupping the brunettes cheek. Her heart fluttering in response, something she hadn't felt in so many years; It scared her...and thrilled her. But when her phone when off she was pulled back into reality. Girlfriend. She had one....she couldn't do this.

She slowly pulled out of Emma's arms, immediately missing the contact and went over to her phone. Dismissing Mals messages. "That should be fine.. I'll talk to my girlfriend about it and see what day I'm free." Regina says and looks up and instantly regrets the words by the look on Emma's face.

Girlfriend? Of course she would have someone what did Emma expect? "Oh.. al-alright.. just let me know. I'm sorry Regina, I'm late for work." Emma said turning and leaving the room. She didn't want the brunette to see how jealous and sad she was. It seemed the world was never going to give them their chance. As she left, she felt herself break.

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Regina watched the blonde leave and she frowned. The vein on her forehead sticking out slightly as she held back tears. Why did everything have to be so hard. Why now? Why couldn't she have found her sooner. She sat down at her desk and pulled out the necklace from inside her dress and held the tree, her fingers tracing its small branches lightly.

It didn't matter in the end how she felt. She wouldn't hurt her girlfriend, and she wasn't going to do anything to ruin this. Yes it's true that it's not.. exactly.. a healthy relationship, but none the less it IS a relationship. Regina opened up her phone and read the message

-I'll pick you up at 7 -M

Regina closed the phone and waited for her next class to enter so she could have a distraction.

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Being upset and going to work in Emma's line of duty was lions playing with fire and gasoline. It made it where she wasn't on her A game. By the end of her shift Emma walked away with a black eye, and split lip, and a bruised rib. She was trying to break up a fight and instead, the men pulled her into it. Her knuckles bloody and bruised as the two idiots were locked up.

After work Emma went home, immediately pulling out her tequila and taking a large shot. The alcohol burned her throat and her cut, but soon she wouldn't feel anything and she gladly accepted the pain relief. 3 am rolled around and Emma was.. beyond drunk. She threw up a few times and fell asleep in her bath tub just in case.