Treads // cth

One Hundred and Seven

Calum Hood

00:09 am

@wannahugthemm: if you see my tweets why don't you reply me here?

@wannahugthemm: you mentioned Noemi back and not me

@wannahugthemm: okay, I'm the worst friend ever

@wannahugthemm: got it

@wannahugthemm: but can you please don't make me feel this miserable?

@Calum5SOS read at 00:14 am

@wannahugthemm: I miss you

@wannahugthemm: and I'm sorry for how I treated you

@wannahugthemm: when we were talking about Clingy boy

@wannahugthemm: I think I said something on the lines "I'm gonna kiss him again and again"

@wannahugthemm: like I could make you fucking jealous talking about the way I fucking kissed a guy I don't even like

@wannahugthemm: he took me on a third date, at the mall

@wannahugthemm: I hate shopping and I hate crowded places and I even told him multiple times about me not being able to socialize with people I don't know, yet he took me at the mall and stopped every 5 fucking minutes to talk with some of his friends that were there to hang-out

@wannahugthemm: he's not a bad guy, I think he would be a good boyfriend

@wannahugthemm: but not for me

@wannahugthemm: and I told him that

@wannahugthemm: but he just got angry and left

@wannahugthemm: he left me there with no one, sitting on a bench outside the mall, freezing to death with only a sweater on and ripped skinny jeans (it's fucking May I mean ... I didn't know it would've been so cold at night) and the worst part of this is that I didn't have cash to call a taxi and I didn't know how to go home

@wannahugthemm: we took the bus to go, but when he left, he saw his friends on their way out, jumped in their car and left

@wannahugthemm: I called my mum in the end, she didn't question anything and just bought me dinner in a Pizzeria (the place that sell pizza)

@wannahugthemm: but in the forty, scary, minutes I passed alone sat on the cold ass bench I had time to think

@wannahugthemm: I wrote something on the notes on my phone, I think that means I'm not longer on a writer block

@wannahugthemm: but that only lasted for ten minutes, I had so much to say yet no clue how to express that pang I felt in my chest and all over my body

@wannahugthemm: in every single place I could think of

@wannahugthemm: I saw this ... black stroke of pain, just everywhere and I had so many flashbacks of me, being the scared and shy thirteen year old I was at the beginning of high school

@wannahugthemm: and me again, two years and half ago, feeling lost and without a care in the world

@wannahugthemm: and then I thought about you

@Calum5SOS read at 00:43 am

@wannahugthemm: and I was so happy I felt like I could burst out crying any moment on that stupid cold bench

@wannahugthemm: and I had so many things to say, and so many ways I could have told them but no one to write to

@wannahugthemm: that's when the thought of you made me sad, and angry at myself

@wannahugthemm: cause I'm so fucking awefull at keeping the ones I love close to me

@wannahugthemm: and so fucking good at keeping everyone away from me

@wannahugthemm: but I don't want you to go away and turn your back to me like he did

@wannahugthemm: please don't ever say "it was nice talking to you, bye" to me

@Calum5SOS: I won't

@Calum5SOS: ever

@wannahugthemm: I care so much about you and I love you so goddamn much and i'm so so sorry for being such a stupid bitch when you're always the one that makes me happy and spend his time to comfort me whenever I feel like shit and im so sorry I didn't know how to comfort you when you feel like shit

@Calum5SOS: I forgive you for not knowing how to comfort me when I felt like shit, but now stop telling yourself down princess, cause you are not a shitty friend, at all

@wannahugthemm: but I should have been there for you, like you always do for me

@Calum5SOS: It's okay, what matters is that you know what you could've done and that next time you'll know what to do

@Calum5SOS: we learn from our mistakes and i'm not blaming you for committing one, actually, I over-reacted

@wannahugthemm: where there reasons why you think you over-reacted?

@Calum5SOS: ye, but i'm not ready to tell you yet

@wannahugthemm: that's okay

@wannahugthemm: will you ever tell me?

@Calum5SOS: when I'll be ready

@wannahugthemm: is It that bad?

@Calum5SOS: not bad, just a little too much to handle for the both of us

@wannahugthemm: oh ... okay. Uhm are we ... fine?

@Calum5SOS: Totaly ;)

@wannahugthemm: omg you did not just made fun of my typo again

@Calum5SOS: oops ;)

@wannahugthemm: are u gonna stop with the winks? Damn boi

@Calum5SOS: are u really gonna tattoo one on your forehead? ;)

@wannahugthemm: fuck no

@Calum5SOS: That's right, do not ever tattoo something you'll know you'll regret and don't drink so much you'll let someone convince you to get a tattoo

@wannahugthemm: are you teaching me a life lesson or something? I feel like you're my ... ;)

@Calum5SOS: if that's the lame beginning of a new daddy joke, I swear imma ignore you for the rest of my life

@wannahugthemm: confess you missed my daddy jokes ;)

@Calum5SOS: Oh I didn't

@Calum5SOS: but I can say with no shame that I missed you