No Broken Hearts

Chapter 37

                                 Jimmi

Nia: Okay i emailed you a list of to do things for her, follow everything on that list Jimmi forreal

Me: i know Nia damnn, you told me that 4 times already, dont you got a flight to get to 

Nia: Shut up Nigga, it took everything in my nature to let her stay with you this weekend, i'll be happy to take her back 

Me: Know you wont you know you wanna hurry up and go to Las Vegas for your Fuckgirl ways 

Nia: That aint me NEVER ...Well, Bye Mella I love you and I will facetime you every night 

Me: Dont bother doin that if you gon be shitfaced ..

Nia: Oh and umm she Teething now 

Me: Fuck is Teethinh 

Nia: its when her gums are hurting preparing for her first tooth

Me:...is she gon be crying 

Nia: yup and she's gonna be wanting to bite,  dont worry i put her toothring in the freezer, whenever she cries or starts biting give it to her, she gonna put it in her mouth and calm down 

Me: mmmh biting, my babygirl not finna be learning her mommas special talent 

She kissed Carmella on the lips while flippin me off.. She started to leave then she turned towards me 

Nia: I know you gon fuck up just a little bit, but thats okay....imma help you

Me: No type of confidence in a nigga right ...but thank you 

She smiled and then left me alone... I turned carmella towards me..she was smiling ...I think I can do this forreal..

                                                     Later 

Carmella: Waaaaaaa

Me: Calm down Carmella baby

I was wrong like a mfker..I feel shitty as hell.. Carmella been crying for almost an hour..i thought she was gonna cry herself to sleep but she didnt.. I texted Nia and she told me that She probably wont some milk and since i aint got no attachable tititis toproduce some milk, i sent Swae to go get some formula..

The door opened and this nigga walked in all casual while my fucking ears are bleeding ...

Swae: Okay..I got the formula..apples...and all that other fruit shit and what the fuck is a nut butter

Me: Peanut butter dumbass its on the bottle..go make the milk 

Swae: i told you she dont want no damn milk..

.....Maybe she just Teething...

Me: aye go in the freezer and grab me her mouth ring 

Swae looked confused by my words but he went anyway...he came back out with her blue mouth ring ..he gave it to me and then i gave it to her ...Fucking Finally 

Me: Oh Music to my ears...

Swae: What??

Me: Silence 

Carmella was biting the ring mad nasty tho..she was aggressive my nigga.. but at least she was quiet.. me and swae sat on the couch and watched Carmella on the floor..

Swae: She biting the shit out that thing 

Me: I know..Nia say she gon be teethin bad..

Swae: that means she picked the perfect time to leave my nigga 

Me: Yeah, but i know i can handle it... Nia knows i can do it too...do you?

Swae: ..doesnt matter what i think,  you aint got shit to prove to me..its Nia, you gotta prove it to her... you and Nia gotta work together 

Me: say whats on yo mind ghee...

Swae:what?

Me: you keep saying the shit i want to hear..you not saying what you thinking..

For a while I noticed swae been real secretive with what he thinking when he around me. Especially when It comes to Nia.. I feel like he still aint accept that me and her fucked and had a baby after all this time..

Swae: I'm good ghee..there aint nothing wrong.. its really nothing cause I made peace with Nia and even tho we said me and you made peace, I felt like we never made anything really..

Me: Okay...so lets talk about it..what cant you accept

Swae: its just the same shit I told you..i cant believe you was in love with her ...I cant believe you had sex with her...I cant believe you have  a baby with her ... I just cant believe my brother would do this... key word BROTHER... I remember I looked up the word brother and what its meaning was.. it meant " A Person who is there when you need him, someone who picks you up when you fall, a person who sticks up for you when no one else will, a brother is always a friend".. but then when I look you..i see someone who I grew up with, who was there for me whenever I needed him, who was literal my protector when I didn't have one,no homo,..a person who I was proud to call my brother.. someone who loved me more than anybody..no homo..someone who loved me so much that he would sleep with my girlfriend and get her pregnant and not apologize for it...you took pride in what you did whether you wanna fucking admit it or not..I knew I was gonna be hurt when I lost Nia but I didn't know I was gonna lose you too..I just want an apology bro..if you aint gonna give it to me that's fine..but that's all I want

We were both quiet for a minute...Damnn mann I knew I hurted him and I knew he was still holding on to some of that hurt when we first made up, so now I don't want him to hold on to none of it this time..i want him to know I'm truly sorry for all this ..he my baby brother..i love his stupid ass ..

Me:...I'm sorry swae man..really I am... I never meant to hurt you at all, I'm not that fucking selfish that I would hurt you to get my point across, i feel what you feeling.. you disappointed in me... I'm disappointed in myself .. i know that nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the person you never thought would hurt you..but i did and i cant take it back but i wanna make up for it.. and imma try so hard cause you my baby brother and i love you..its gonna take some time but I'm willing to go there for you to gain your trust back..i promise

Swae smiled ...

Swae:...damn nigga i only asked for an apology

Me: Fuck you bro

Swae: But nahh man i appreciate what you said cause i know you mean it..I love you too

Me: you aint say no homo this time..look at chu making moves..

We started laughing then we shook up..I noticed that Carmella fell asleep on the floor...

Me: She out for the count

Swae: Man put her in the bed some we can smoke it up shorty

Me: A fool