We can make the sun shine in the moon light
We can make the grey clouds turn to blue skies
we can't go nowhere but up
From here, my dear
With this Rode Into The Sky
I keep disappearing lol but here is another chapter my bestfriend has been on my ass about posting because i havent been but she is helping me write again and i thank her okay so let me shit up now i hope you enjoy this chapter
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One month later
Shea
"Janelle I never said i would let devin take him." i said holding the laundry basket
"Hey look Shea i dont even like Devin that much but i have to say he needs to see his child he has been blowing your phone up look there it goes again." Janelle said to me yeah she has her little points but i don't know if Devin is ready to see the baby yet
Well maybe im not ready for him to see Aiden yet
"Okay fine maybe ill agree once i see he is in a right state of mind." i said throwing the dirty clothes in the washer
How did i go from wanting him to see him then not Wanting him to and now my best friend decides she changed her mind what kinda foolery is this
I walked away from the washer to go check on kai and aiden kai was holding aiden in his arms aiden is still really small i mean he is on 2 months i decided to not look for a job yet even though i have family here to watch aiden i just want to stay as close as possible to him and watch him grow
I smiled and plopped down on my bed staring at my phone 20 missed calls from Devin ugh idk should i call back or should i just wait im just gonna call
I walked out of the room into the living room i pressed his contact the phone rang i waited to hear his voice
~Hello
~Hi Devin this is-
~Shea i dont have amnesia i know who this is im actually glad you called me back its been a while
~Yeah i guess it has been
~Shea i miss you and Aiden when can i see you guys again
~I dont know if you are ready for the challen-
~Shea thats complete bullshit if i wasnt ready i wouldnt be begging to see my child yeah shea get it through your head its our plural our child we made that baby and its stupid you wont let me see him
~I just want to know that your safe to be around
~ Okay Shea you wanna see if im safe to be around why dont you come to my place yes i moved closer to you yes i found your address im not creepy i just want to ve involved in his life you can come by my home today and check out everything Shea i promise i got better im healthier now
~Devin I-
~please She ill prove it to you
~alright text me your address ill come alone im not bringing Aiden yet
~Fine
~Fine
I hung up the phone as my phone dinged it was devins address being sent
I grabbed my purse keys and ran out the door getting into my car i turned on the GPS and started following the route
I cannot believe im going to do this.
I kept driving and to calm myself down i hooked my phone up to the aux and started blasting my new fav song. Feels by kiiara
And I got way too many feels, way too much emotion I don't even know what's real I just say fuck it, keep on going And I get deeper, I get deeper, yeah, I feel I'm rolling I can see you, yeah, I see you I don't know, I think I'm rolling And yeah, it's way too many feels, way too much emotion I don't even know what's real I just say fuck it, keep on going I get deeper, I get deeper, yeah, I think I'm rolling I can see you, yeah, I see him I don't know, I just keep going
And I got way too many feelings, way too much emotion All this Xans inside my body, I say fuck it keep on drowning Yeah, you can bring a juice I'll match you Yeah, you mix it, pour the potion I don't know who you are, but I'd dive into your ocean And yeah, you say you smoking grams, I'm smoking into the Grammys Say you got them bars, but all I see is candy Still you came through so low-key, think you understand, I don't know me Still I get along with your best friends, even better with your family
And I got way too many feels, way too much emotion I don't even know what's real I just say fuck it, keep on going And I get deeper, I get deeper, yeah, I think I'm rolling If I see him, yeah, I see him I don't know I just keep going
Yeah, way too many feels, way too much emotion I don't even know what's real I just say fuck it, keep on going I got all I need, you don't know what I mean Yeah we pour up 'til we go up (go-go-up) And I got way too many feels, not enough to forfeit Many fuckin' bands, so you know we finna blow it We be faded when I'm sober, sober when I'm faded Overscrutinized by all your counterparts there's no debating
You say it's 'cause they jaded, yeah, they jealous that I made it Do you remember that first time I missed you in the basement? Back when we really didn't know it, we were searching for some Now they pay full advance, and there ain't no fucking discussion At the stage they jumping because it's like that You see all these checks and now your girl ain't even write back You drink all my Rose, and you know what to do Someone dropped up a dose, so we finna get screwed
You know I got like way too many feels, way too much emotion Don't know how to make you feel But I'm sorry, bitch, I'm flowin' You know I just drop top in that coup, zoom Don't know where you been at, true Now I'm searchin' for who, you Yeah, I'm comin' right back And I got way too many feels, way too many feels
By the end of this song that i shouldnt have listened to right now i made it to is house it was pretty it was more modern then homey
It reminded me of my old house you know my moms house i parked on the street i got out my car and walked to the door. I looked down at my outfit it wasnt fancy i mean i just had a baby i needed to cover up
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I finally reached the door i let out a deep breath Ringing the door bell my heart was beating the door nob turned and .....
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What do yall think will happen when she goes to see devin
