dear harry - larry au ✔

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louis inhales the fresh air around him before lighting up his cigarette that's already set between his cold lips.

as he feels the smoke escaping his lungs he slowly relaxes and finally he's able to stop the thoughts to run through his brain - at least for some seconds.

but when his cigarette is done and he feels his hands freezing even though he wears gloves his minds starts spinning again.

hissing a small curse to himself he turns around to leave the balcony and get back into his bedroom.

when he sits down at his desk, he lies his head down on the wood to try to stay calm. unfortunately he soon feels tears burning in his eyes why he grabs a packet of tissues to dry them before he can actually start crying.

but still a quiet yet deep sob leaves his mouth and he shivers as his shoulders even start shaking.

in his blurry state of thinking he just grabs some post its and a pen and suddenly he begins writing down the pain he's been holding in for a really long time.

and without even knowing why he finds himself addressing each one to his older brother harry.