Always and Forever

Part Two

Dear Pads,

I understand your delay. Not being able to stay in the same area for a long period of time is rough. When I was told that you had killed off James and Lily I was shell shocked. How could people honestly believe that their best friend killed them. I tried everything to get you cleared, but no one wanted to listen to me. They assumed I was blinded by the truth because I was grieving. Dumbledore told me he believed you had killed them and told me to stop trying. After I woke up from my horrid transformation a few weeks ago I gave him an earful. I've never yelled at someone the way I did to Dumbledore. Honestly, I have no regrets; if I didn't listen to him thirteen years ago we could have been together. You should have approached me when you saw me walk into the forest I would have been shocked nonetheless. Seeing after all these years, and as dirty as you were, I would have kissed you with as much passion that I have carried for you since the moment I met you. I presume that Harry and his friends are grateful we kept our affection to a minimum when we saw each other, even though I too wanted to jump you. What else can someone expect from a couple that hasn't seen each other in twelve years. Some would say that they don't miss your pride and humor, however, that is one of many things about you that I have missed. As much as I want to say that these past years have been okay I don't want to lie to you. The absence of James, Lily, and especially you have killed me; at first I thought the transformation would be the hardest part, but waking up the morning after is the worst. I used to wake up with my head in your lap, feel your fingers combing through my hair and you'd whisper in my ear "I'm right here. You're safe Moony. You're okay.". I miss you Pads. After all, we've been through I don't understand how you can expect me to move on. I don't care that you are being chased. I may be physically breathing, but I am dead without you. You give me life. You give me a reason to live. All I need to be happy is you. You make me happy Pads and I wish you could get it through your thick head we are nothing without the other. We make each other whole. I love you Pads, only you.

Always,

Moony