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Wowee (Happy New Year!)

Alright, this is pretty long...

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Hi, guys!

So, over here, we hit 2017 an hour ago!

I'm sure, like me, you're all eager for it to come around and make up for the awfulness of 2016.

2016, in all honesty, was one of the worst years of my life.

I started having breakdowns and voices in my head that put me down, plus friendship troubles and so many things that I did not know how to handle.

It was the first year in my life when I felt the need to curl up and avoid everything and everyone and only listen to that voice, because, to me, that voice was the only thing that I needed to pay attention to.

I started the year...ok, but gradually I felt worse and worse and began to hate myself and criticise everything I did.

Things were messy in school and in my head and I had no idea what to do.

I planned to leave Wattpad- and even the internet altogether- but then I remembered something.

I remembered everyone on this website.

I remembered how much they cared for me and supported me and comforted me.

So, I came back, still planning to abandon social interaction soon.

But then, you guys were the sweetest.

You guys cheered me up and helped me without even knowing what was going on.

You made my happiness increase with every chapter you published and every comment you posted.

The best part is today, although those voices may pop up once or twice, they're basically gone.

Because of all of you.

Even if you didn't send a message to me, I would scroll through my newsfeed, see the chapters and comments you had posted and smile.

And with each new day and with each new comment and chapter, my joy increased.

I reached the lowest point of happiness in my life and got thrown into a pit of absolute distress.

And you guys pulled me out.

I'm hoping and praying that 2017 is going to be really great and amazing for you guys.

I hope that the love and hope and laughter you've given to me will be given back to you.

I hope that you'll find that peace you've been hoping for for so long.

I hope that you'll reach that goal you've been aiming for.

I hope that 2017 won't be a huge disappointment for you.

I just want you guys to be happy.

One of my most important missions in life is just to make people laugh.

Or even just crack a smile.

Because that just warms up my lil' heart and makes me realise that, even if I feel like everything is crumbling down, I can still cheer people up, which will eventually cheer me up.

Thank you so, so much for everything.

(I told myself I wouldn't tag people, but whoops I did)

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ninjaprincessXD- Oh. My. You have been so supportive, so kind, so hilarious and so important to me. You've made me feel so happy and at peace on some of my worst days. During an especially bad breakdown, you were there to comfort me and your words were so helpful at that time. Thank you. I really do appreciate how much you helped me when I was struggling in my life. I hope to repay you one day (although it will be hard to find an action that is equal to all the ones you've done for me)!

Boring_Rhino- BOI. When you made your return, I had little-to-no knowledge about you, yet now I can confidently say that you've been a great and beautiful friend to me. You do so much and I'm so grateful to have gotten to know someone as giving as you. I'm really glad I got to know you (if you don't get at least one of your stories published when you're older, I will mourn)!

Hetalia_Sisters- HAHA. FAM, you're great and I love you to bits. You're funny, friendly and just a real cutie. I enjoy talking to you and seeing how you spread joy around with every word you type. I love your writing and your style and I appreciate how kind and generous you are. I would be interested to know what would happen if we met one day...

lu-nar- (You can also look at the reply I gave to your message) I remember reading a Hetalia one-shot you wrote for the first time and instantly falling in love with your style- the way you set the scene and made each and every moment in the story feel so real amazed me. Even today, I still try my best to catch up with the stories you write. Although it may not always seem like it, I do adore your writing and everything you do. I look up to you.

QueenOfTheSquirrels-- First thing I thought was MEMES, but no, I've gotta be serious 😅 I love your art style, your writing style and I'm amazed by how quickly you think of ideas and turn them into entertaining and engaging things for your readers. Your OC's are gorgeous and you always find ways to make your work have a hint of realism. I'm so happy to have gotten to know you and I'm still so grateful for how you cheered your readers and me up during an extremely bad time. Thank you.

Shadana- Last but not least, m'friend. I remember seeing you in the comments of Queen's books and, out of curiosity, decided to add your latest book to my library after reading just the first chapter. I love your writing and how friendly and lovable you are. You're a beautiful and lovely person and, even though we haven't known each other for long, I would happily call you a good friend. I hope I get to know you more in the new year!

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Phew!

Thank you to all my followers and all my friends on Wattpad.

If I didn't tag you here, just know that I still remember you and I am grateful for everything you do (I'll also try to post a message here and there).

Happy New Year to everyone! Hope you all have an amazing one!