She finally did it. I'm not surprised, I knew this would inevitably happen, but now, seriously? Why would my girlfriend break up with me on our year anniversary? That's just cruel. I don't know what to do.
Why did she leave me? Am I too stupid? Ugly? Fat? A combination of the three? Did she think I was cheating or what? Honestly I think that when you break up with someone, you should give them a reason. But, then again, do I really want to know?
I shouldn't be as devastated as I am, with us not seeing each other as much recently. Why must this hit my weak spot? I've been ready for it for months. Maybe that's why it hurt so much, because I expected it.
Why can't I just pull myself together, glue on my happy mask, and act like nothing happened? I can't go out in public as I am. I'm thinking about dropping out of school. I can't bear to see her again. I don't really want to think about what would happen if I did. I'm guessing a mental breakdown, which wouldn't be surprising, but I don't want to go and figure out for myself. If I was skinnier would she still love me? I guess I'll never know.
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The Final Countdown
Short StoryA fictional story dealing with real problems. Trigger Warning: Mentions of bullying, eating disorders, self harm, and suicide. Read at your own risk.
