• m i l l i e •
as me and finn ate, we talked about our upcoming exams and how we had way too much studying to catch up on.
"yeah- i'm ninety-nine percent sure i'm going to fail." finn said while he scooped more scrabbled eggs onto his spoon
"me too," i poked at my food
"what's wrong?" finn asked as he set down his fork and grabbed my hand
"i just want to see my dad, thats all." i smiled
finn's face turned white in a matter of a second. what was wrong?
"millie— about your dad—," finn was interrupted by a doctor
"hello, i just need you to sign these papers before we send your father to the morgue." the doctor said as he handed me papers
"w-what do you mean send my father to the morgue?" i looked at finn, "i thought he was fine?"
the doctor gave finn a disapproving look, "i'm sorry but your father passed away an hour ago."
i could feel the hot tears fighting their way out of my eyes.
"how could you? how could you lie right to my face!" i yelled at finn
he ducked his head down, knowing that any word he was about to say wouldn't sooth my feelings. i stood up, and walked out with the doctor, leaving finn to realize what he had just done.
•••
"like i said before, i'm so sorry for your loss." the doctor repeated
"thank you." i said quietly while handing the signed papers back to him
i gathered my phone and keys and walked to the parking lot, where i saw finn waiting by his car.
"millie, give me five minutes to explain-" he started to say
"no, i'm not in the mood for a bullshit explanation! you lied about my dad, and for what? to save my feelings from being hurt? well maybe, in order for us to actually be happy, we are going to have to be sad for a while, and recover, because that's what people do! they recover!" i ranted, not knowing one word that was coming out of my mouth
finn stood there, not knowing what to say, so i walked past him and got in my car and left without saying another word.
i took a whole hour driving around town before pulling into the campus parking lot.
i walked through the cold air and into my complex.
i saw finn, bending down slipping something under my door.
he turned around and had a worried look on his face, "i'm leaving okay? please don't yell again. i'm sorry and i know those words don't matter to you but-" he couldnt even finish his sentence before i walked in my room and slammed the door behind me
i could've been a little nicer to him but what he did was wrong.
as i walked over to my desk i stepped on what seemed like a letter, with my name written neatly on the front of it.
i quickly realized it was from finn and threw it on my desk.
maybe it was time to focus less on boys and more on school, with that said i pulled out a textbook and started studying.
the next day was a blur, after the fifth cup of coffee i drank, i was basically in hyperdrive.
i walked in to class and took my exam, not bothering to look at the piercing brown eyes beside me.
and as soon as i was finished i walked out and headed to the nearest pub.
i was in desperate need of a drink.
•••
i showed the bouncer my fake id, maddie had made for me whenever we'd go out.
he nodded and let me in, as soon as i saw the bar, i quickly went over and ordered three shots.
one for my dad.
one for me.
and one for my lying boyfriend, finn.
i downed all three of them and started feeling the effects immediately.
i turned to my left and started talking to the first guy i saw.
my vision was a little blurry from the shots and beer i just chugged.
"hi-," i said
"why, hello-," he said
"your- cute-," i trailed
"i would hope so," he laughed as he ordered us two shots
"i'm millie," i held out my hand
"noah." he said as he shook my hand, letting it linger a few seconds before grabbing a shot
"to ungrateful boyfriends!" i shouted
"and girlfriends!" he shouted as we both clinked our shots together and downed them
after a while, i decided it was time to go back to the campus, and noah did too.
over the few hours, we talked about many things, and grew closer.
close enough where he offered to walk me back.
when we arrived at my door, we stood there, waiting for someone to say something.
instead, he leaned down and kissed me.
which resulted in me kissing back.
the rest of the night was a drunkened blur of clothes being thrown on the floor and things being knocked over.
in the morning, my roommate shook me awake and said that someone had been knocking at our door for the past half n hour.
i climbed over the man in my bed and wrapped myself in a sheet.
i walked to the door, not bothering to look to see who it was first and opened it.
only to see a puffy-eyed finn.
"millie-," he stopped as he saw me, then looked at the man in my bed
"oh, i-i see your occupied at the moment, i'll go." and before i could say anything he was gone, leaving me to figure out who the hell was in my bed and where the aspirin was.
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wc ; 964
authors note ;
haven't updated this in a while, but here's a shit chapter
