Sexual Abuse Poem

Honesty Hour

Okay so it's my fault?
You want to blame me?
Put it down to everything I didn't do?
Because no isn't enough?

Fine, I'll play your game
It's time for honesty  hour. 

When you were ten years old,
What was your biggest worry?
Whether or not you were popular?
Or if you had a certain color crayon?

Now fast forward to age 12
Who did you fear the most?
Was it your teacher with an attitude?
Maybe the parents who grounded you?
Or the school bully that doesn't stop talking?

Okay now you're 16...
That's a hard age for everyone
But what caused your anger?
Teachers, family, classmates...

Now my life wasn't terrible...
I did have some good times...
I laughed and cried 
Stressed over classes 
Like everyone else

But here's where the differences arise...

You see, at age 10,
My biggest worry was falling asleep
Because then 
was when he would come to my room...
By age 12,
I had a fear of my cousin
Because he couldn't stop touching me
And when I was 16
I had a taser in my pocket at school
Because If a 3rd person came to me
I swore I wouldn't go down without their frying

So you want honesty hour?
I'll give you my truth. 
While I'm at it, take my life
Maybe you won't  be so miserable in it.
Maybe you will learn how to cope better.

Like I said, I had my good times
Perhaps it wasn't such a bad life
But nobody should fear their cousin and friend
Nobody should worry about falling asleep 
Nobody should feel so hopeless
That they hurt to control something

So maybe I could have done more
I could have screamed louder
Fought harder
I should have known that no is not enough

And this situation?
I was bound to be knocking on death's door 
Because nobody bothered to talk to them 
About what they were doing to me.