Fix You (Chandler Riggs X Reader)

~Should've Never Said The Word Love~

I woke up, feeling terrible. I checked my phone to see what time it was. It read 2:30pm. I sighed. My phone was blowing up, last night but I was too tired to see what or who it was. Chandler and Madison.

ChanChan❤️: Y/N??? Where the heck did you go????

ChanChan❤️: Y/N????? R u okay????

ChanChan❤️: plz answer me!!!!!! I'm super worried!!!!

20 missed calls. As much as I didn't want to talk to him, I had to call him back to tell him I was fine. Psychically, not mentally. He picked up right away. "Y/N? Is everything okay?!" He asked. "Yeah, everything is fine. I left the party, because I was getting tired and you two looked like you were having fun so I left." I said. "Why didn't you answer my calls or texts? Why didn't you tell us?" He asked. "One, I couldn't find you, two I was super tired." I lied. "Y/N, I'm so sorry it was your birthday if you wanted to leave we would have left with you." He said.

"It's fine." I said. "Okay, well can I come over? I want to make it up to you." He said. "Yeah, my dads out for work or something." I said lying. He was probably drunk or at his girlfriend's house. "Okay, is it okay if I come now?" He asked. "Let me get dressed and I'll text you when you can come over." I said. "Okay see you then." He said. "Bye." I said hanging up. I picked an outfit out, and put it on. I straightened my hair a bit, and put some makeup on. I texted him I was ready, and shortly he arrived. I smiled when I saw him. He pulled me into a hug. "Come in." I said. He walked in and we sat down on the couch.

"I'm super sorry about yesterday." He said. "It's fine." I said. "Madison and I are together." He said. He talked and talked about her. Every time, he said her name his eyes lit up. "Wanna watch a movie?" I asked. He nodded and I put on F/M. (Favorite movie.) He wrapped his arms around me. I felt loved once again, but I knew that it was just friendly love. I wanted to tell him how I felt. Maybe he would change his mind about being with Madison, and be with me. I had to tell him. I just had to. "C-Chandler?" I said. "Yeah?" He said.

"I need to tell you something." I said turning off the tv. We sat up. "Okay." He said. I gulped and took a deep breath. "Chandler, I have loved you ever since we were 14. You have been there for me, through my rough times. You make me smile when I'm sad, you make me laugh when i cry. You are my everything. My best friend. I know you probably don't feel the same, and all but please think about it. I want to be able to call you mine, just not my best friend. But I understand if you think of me as just a friend. But just know I have loved you and I always will." I said. It was silent for a few seconds.

"Y/N, I'm so sorry I love Madison. You are my best friend and I just don't feel the same." He said. I nodded and tried to hold back the tears. He gave me a hug. "I-It's fine." I said. "Um I'm gonna go, sorry about everything." He said getting up and leaving. I broke down crying.

Ha, you really thought he would love you back?

Like I said you are

Ugly

Fat

Stupid

Worthless

You will never find love

Because no one loves you

Should've never said the word love.