Unforgotten Bella

I Wish

I go to the cliff hoping Alice will be there today i didnt see her but she came i sit in the spot feeling sadwr than ever it has been weeks and even a few months Alice has been doing this it heals my pain but doesnt fill in the one part of me that has just walked away sometimes i wish i could just go to him and glue myself to him so he wouldnt leave me again.
Maybe it wasnt a dream maybe Edward trully came but the dream Edward is cautious he would of know i was going to look at the window so he hid were he always does in the truck i know it has been a day already but maybe he is still sitting in the car awaiting me I get home to see Charlie leaving to go fishing why he just got back I don't understand I just completely ignored it thinking nothing of it
"See Ya Dad" I say kindly he leaves waving his hand at me and then I quickly run to the truck I couldn't believe it, it was Carlisle maybe he had come to tell me something I get in
"Carlisle what's going on" I say in exitment
"Bella I'm sorry to say but we aren't coming back and Alice won't be coming to see you anymore I will explain In minute but right now we need to go back to the house the old one and talk Esme is already there awaiting us" He says
He picks me surprisingly and runs quickly to the house were Esme is waiting for us we walk in and we all sit down
"Bella Edward wants you to have a normal life like he has told us and dos the want any further contact with you" Esme claims
"But I love him I wish he would just come back to me and stay with me" I say already crying Esme walks over to me and sits rubbing my back trying to comfort me but it dosnt work
"This means Alice won't be coming to see you anymore no more visits and this will be the last of our contact this is what Edward has asked of us and Rosalie agrees that this would be a good idea you would be safer" Carlisle says
I'm so upset I'm crying tears running down my face really quickly I run up to Edwards room and sit down on his reading chair I put on some of his amazing music and I suddenly feel he is here with me I lay crying just wishing he was here with me and I turn around to see Alice
"Alice" I say she looks almost upset seeing me in mental and emotional pain
"Bella I'm so sorry this is what Edward wants for you and I'm afraid as his sister I support my brother I love you Bella and I will miss you" she says heart warmingly
I feel a bit better that I saw her one last time I watch as she jumps through the trees then out of my vision and I just wish I were dead I didn't want to be alive I was being torn from the inside out and I was just wanted to lay down and cry for the rest of my life