Into Your Icy Blues (Gerard Way/My Chemical Romance)

Chapter 5. Hospital

I heard my bedroom door slowly opening. I pretended to be asleep. who ever it was would go away. I lay there not moving even when I felt the bed dip. I felt a hand move my blanket and my eyes shot open to reveal my foster parents son sitting on my bed.

"Get out of my room." He gave me a evil smirk before getting close to my face.

"Dont act like that." He said brushing his fingers across my cheek and down to my chest.

"Please don't touch me."

"Come on baby you know you want it. I see the way you look at me." His hand slid up my thigh and I felt my stomach turn. I felt like I was going to throw up.

"I will scream, get out of my room." I said surprised my voice didnt shake.

"Don't be a fucking tease." He said slapping me hard across the face before pinning me to my bed trying to get my bottoms off.

"Get off me." I said thrashing around. "GET OFF ME NOW!" I screamed at the top of my lungs.

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"Lizzy?"
"Liz?"

I awoke with a start smaking someone who was holding my shoulders. It took me a minute to calm my breathing and focus. With the faint light coming from the hall I saw the person sitting on my bed was Gerard. My hands went up to my mouth seeing him hold his cheek.

"Oh my god I'm so sorry."

"Its alright. Are you okay? I could hear you screaming from across the hall." He asked pushing my hair out of my face. His fingers lightly brushing my cheek. I had to think for a moment and let my heart rate slow down. Not only from waking up in a start but the tingle I felt when he touched me.

"Ah yeah I'm fine. Are you?" I asked looking at the faint red mark on his face feeling horrible for hitting him. He didnt look mad all I saw was concern.

"I'll be fine." He said chuckling. "Do you need anything?" God I smaked him and he wants to know if I need anything.

"No but thank you." I said and he stood up to leave and a part of me didnt want him to go.

"If you need anything I'm in the room on the other side of the stairs." I half smiled not knowing if he could even see.

"Thanks." I said as he went to shut the door but I stopped him. "Can you please keep this between us." He did a slight nod of his head before shutting the door.

After going over in my head of the flash back dream I figured it was because of what Christa had asked. Than I wondered why Gerard was here, they never said he lived here. After finally calming down I was able to feel tired enough to sleep.

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I woke up to light knocking on the door and hearing it slowly open.

"Lizzy?" I heard Christa soft voice say.

"Hmmm." I responded by rolling over facing the door.

"Im sorry to wake you but I got a call and we need to be at the hospital by ten. How much time do you need to get ready?"

"30 minutes. What time is it?" I asked my eyes still closed.

"Its 8:15 and we should leave here no later then 9:30."

"Okay." I said as I sat up. "Ill be ready." She closed the door behind her.

I rubbed the sleep from my eyes feeling myself get nervous. I got out of bed and made my way to the bathroom grabbing a towel and turning the water on. Setting my new showing things in before getting in. The hot water always felt amazing and helped my nerves calm down.

When I felt I couldn't waste anymore time I stepped out wrapping myself in the fluffy towel. I looked in the mirror and wanted to cry. My face looked worse than it had yesterday. I was finishing brushing my teeth when the door opened. I jumped holding my towel tighter around myself.

"Oh god I'm so sorry." I heard Gerard say as he turned his head.

"Its okay I'm done." He stepped out of the bathroom his head still looking away. I walked out rushing to my bedroom remembering to lock the door behind me.

I hurried getting dressed and heading down stairs seeing I had taken longer than I thought in the shower. When I got down there Christa was waiting and we left.

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"Will you come back there with me?" I asked Christa as we were waiting to be called back.

"Are you sure?" She asked looked surprised.

"Yes." I said with a shaky voice.

"Miss Elizabeth Jennings?" Someone called and my body began to shake.

"It will be okay." Christa said grabbing my hand.

We followed a nurse down a few halls and to a room. Right away I was bombarded with questions. Christa staying by my side the whole time. Not long after a doctor came asking similar questions before a nurse handed over garments I needed to put on. I looked over at Christa when they walked out.

"I'll wait in the hall." She said giving me a weak smile. I hurried putting on the little garments and then the robe over my body. Opening the door when I was done.

"I'm done." Christa and a nurse came back in the room.

"Do you want your Aunt to be present?" I looked at Christa and felt I needed someone.

"Please." She smiled and nodded I knew my body looked horrible but I needed someone I trusted.

Even though I hardly knew her. I knew I could trust her. We were taken to a brightly lit room were a women was standing with a big camera.

"If you feel you are uncomfortable at anytime please tell us and we can stop." The women said and I just nodded. Christa held my hand as I sat on a bed. I pulled the robe down to my waist keeping my legs covered. The women began taking pictures and asking me to move every once in awhile. I looked over at Christa and saw tears in her eyes.

"I know this is hard but Could you please stand so I can take full body?"

I looked over at Christa letting go of her hand. I knew the second I moved the robe she would see my cuts. I looked away pulling the robe from my lap and standing up. I kept my head high as she took a few more pictures. I heard quiet sniffling. I refused to look over at Christa not wanting to see her cry.

When we finished Christa did not follow she went and waited in the waiting area. I got dressed and answered a few more questions before they said I was good to go. I was starting to think I should of just did this alone but they would of found out sooner or later. I walked into the waiting room seeing Christa on the phone.

"We should be coming home soon." I heard her say when I got closer.

"I love you too." I could hear in her voice she was holding back from crying.

"Im sorry." I said as she put her phone in her pocket.

"For what?" She asked standing up.

"For what you had to see and hear. For asking you to come back."

"Lizzy I'm glad you asked and I wanted to be there for you. Any time you need to talk come to me no matter what." She said taking both my hand in hers. I nodded as we both headed out of the hospital and to the car.