I'm a mess ||frerard||

Chapter 17

*Gerards pov*

I sat down next to his bed and grasped his hand in mine. I began to cry again muffling my sobs into the white blanket that covered his body. I lifted my head and looked at his beautiful face. His eyes were closed, he looked so peaceful, free from pain and the hate from his mind. I looked down at his lips, I admired how soft they looked and the way his lip ring gleamed in the bright white hospital lights. Another tear rolled down my cheek.

"I'm sorry frank" I whispered to him still tightly clutching his hand in mine "I'm sorry I left you there I never should should have done that I should have stayed and helped you I should have confronted Pete I'm so sorry this is all my fault" the tears began coming out faster now.

"Frankie" i sniffled "you were always such an amazing person but you never accepted that about yourself, you truly were beautiful and talented and everything you said your not I'm so glad I had the chance to meet you and have you in my life and I'm sorry I never told you how much you mean to me"

Still clutching his hand I layed my head on his chest.

"I love you" I whispered quietly and it was true I had finally accepted it. I loved him and no matter what happened I always would love him. He was my Frankie.

I sat up still holding his hand and began to sing softly.

"If I could be with you tonight I would sing you to sleep never let them take the light behind your eyes one day I'll lose this fight as we fade in the dark just remember you will always burn as bright" I collapsed onto him crying hard. The tears were rushing out like a fast river that never stopped flowing.

"Gerard?" I heard Franks voice. Was I going crazy?

"I miss you" I started crying harder.

"Gerard" I heard his voice again, so soft and sweet "Gerard it's okay stop crying I'm right here"