It has been said
That poets write their
Strongest pieces
When they're going
Through bad timesThat when things are
Working out
The writing isn't the same
That can and may be trueContemplation
Should I have written
When my anxiety
Was piggybacking me
Waiting for my blood test resultsYou know it's been 7 months
Since the last one
There was that
And getting final grade backStill waiting
Not making it my everything
I've started to change back to
Who I was pre-illnessCaring about others
Who put themselves first
And can close off to me
Even though they know
I worry and that's bad for meBut it's done anyways
Because who cares if a
Friend is worried
Instead of a heads up
They come firstWhy do I do that?
If they can put themselves
First
Just like I did before
I shouldn't take it personallyContemplation
I used to be an enigma
To friends
Even that word, friend
Needs to be re-evaluatedI watch folks pray to
The social media G-ds constantly
About finding true love
But are they looking
Or just hoping the perfect man
Will fall into their lapsBeauty and the Beast
Is only a movie
In order for life to have meaning
You got to work for itOpen your heart to the universe
Be more social
Or join a siteI am made out of love
I am determined to
Move on my own path
And
Maybe just maybeI will not share anything else
Personal about myself
Until I am as cared about as
I have about othersI deserve better
Poems will happen
I am a writer after all
But what's deep in my heart
My soul
Is no longer anyone's businessBecause you don't deserve it
That's not a judgment
That's the truthI saw
I witnessed
I contemplated
I gave chancesSince people are staying true to
Themselves
I deserve the best as wellPoems are written during
Epiphanies tooIt's my turn now
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Walking Forward to the Beginning (Book 5)
PoetryStarting August 2nd, 2016 until September 3, 2018......these poems will be describing the onward journey in remission as well as how I continue walking forward to the beginning.....after all, only from the past can you grow in strength to face the f...