The Queen [2]

Chapter 10

Serayah

I toss and turn but it wouldn't leave my mind.His scent.His touch.His kiss.And I'm feeling guilty as ever.I shouldn't have said what I said.But if that's what it takes to make him leave me alone.I think I'm willing to do it.

But something about him leaving me alone cause the ache in my heart.I can now admit that I'm not over him.But how could anyone do that?.How could someone walk away from someone who meant so much to them?.How could you talk to someone that you love like how you talk to stranger?How could you sleep peacefully as their heart longed for someone.How could you not think about them,their features,their touch,their scent,the way that they make you feel,their smile,their glances when you're talking to someone else.Their ways to try and see you any chance they get.But simply how could you stop loving someone without ever going through tears and the change of heart?How could you?

I realized now that I made a mistake.Sitting up and seeing that it was 3am.I knew he is probably laying in bed or he could be in his office.He usually will stay up late when he has to finish up some work.And since he had to go to the hospital earlier he could probably be in his office.

But do I really want to go back to him?.The knock in my door stike curiosity in myself.Who would want to knock my door at 3am.Pulling myself out of the bed and taking my robe hanging that was sitting on top of the sofa.I opened the door."Alex?"Confusion laced on my expression."Sorry for waking you up this early in the morning is just that I have to go to the next stop of the tour like right now and I just wanted to say goodbye".We talked a little after before he had to go.

After deciding to make myself a cup of tea as seemingly I cant seem to fall asleep.I turned on the tv and what an interesting show their showing on the national tv station.'Neymar&Serayah:The modern fairytale'.

As they showed my wedding video they talk of my famous wedding dress the length of it how it was unique in a certain way.How it is decorated by beads and diamonds.How the embroidery takes atleast three and a half months and how the cost of the dress was not as expensive as they thought it would be.

Then they moved to my public appearances.Neymar and I's connection in public appearances and then my maternity style and then some more public appearances and the split then the attack followed by the miracle and then finally the divorce and the aftermath.

"You know I personally felt like king neymar's relationship with serayah is a country's embarrassment.She obviously wasn't ready to take upon the job of having to be a queen and a wife.Basically I think you can say is that she failed".

Only if they knew.What really happened.Deciding I had enough of people talking about my marriage like they were behind closed doors I decided to try and get some sleep.

Waking up to impatient knocking on the door after only having received two hours of sleep is not fun.Its six am for goodness sake.Taking the  pink robe to cover my body.I hurrily opened the door.Only to be greeted by neymar."What are you-"And again I was cut off by a kiss.

"I couldn't sleep.I couldn't sleep knowing what I did to you was wrong and I'm sorry."And I nodded.Closing the door after him."What are you doing here neymar,You know this is wrong.There could be news outlet outside of this hotel and they would come up with stories like-" "Like what that I'm in love with you?That I'm in love with my ex wife?That I chose you,I chose someone whom the country loves as their queen?"And I shook my head "Stop saying that neymar".

"But its true serayah"The room got quiet thats what I wanted to hear for a year and after hearing it.It doesnt feel right.Looking into his eyes just to try and find whether he is drunk or but there wasn't a hint of an alcohol effect.Nor was there an alcohol smell lingering on him nothing.

"I cant let you do this neymar,I won't let you do this.Hurting kenna.I won't.So you need to leave."I said as sternly as I could.But he only inches closer."Leave neymar."More and more my voice became weaker.As he hold my waist."Leave neymar"Putting my hand on his chest as I tried to push him."I said leave"voice barely a whisper."Tell me you don't feel that"He said."Feel what neymar?"I question tired of having to ask a stubborn person to leave.

"Feel that we're right for each other.The way how we stay sane when we're around each other.Being without you for a year make me insane.There are nights where I could barely sleep.Serayah I need you."I can't find the words to reply to him instead.I squirmed until he released his grip on me.

"Its 6am.And I only slept for three hours.And I'm tired of having to ask you to leave so please-"I walk back to my bedroom."Find your way out."With that the door shut behind me as I find myself leaning against the door.

A knock against my bedroom door make me let out a frustrated sigh.I walk to the window and stare upon the view.Neymar opened the door.

"Serayah,I-" I don't know why but I'm crying.All my feelings have taken over my emotions."I love you".

"No you don't!You don't get that privilege of loving me.You left me neymar!You did.You made me feel what a terrible person I am.I would do anything for you!Anything.I gave up my private life for you!I take upon the job of being a queen!Do you know how hard that is?From having a normal life then a moment later you're a queen and everything is watching your whole move and then suddenly I'm a divorced woman.My life change again because of you.I receive hundreds and hundreds of threats because of me ever being married to you!They called me names!They said I was an embarrassment to this country!do you know how that feels having to be a living embarrassment to your own country?And then here you are waltzing into my life like nothing happened and claiming you love me?I beg your pardon but no you don't love me,you never did!"Surprised by my outburst and how I am now kneeling on the ground sobs taken upon my body,He stood there before he was by my side and I'm crying onto his chest.

I don't know how but I fell asleep.I was held as I fell asleep and carried to the bed and his arms is holding me close and maybe later I would apologize to kenna or maybe I'll just disappear again I don't know but what I know is I cannot stay here longer.I cannot be the reason why neymar and kenna grow apart.He loves her because I know him,he won't take anyone as a lover or even his fiancé if he don't love them.

So maybe I'll be gone in a few more minutes before neymar wakes up.But for now let me just lay in the comfort of the hotel bed and in his arms for a couple of minutes.

As the sun began raising I knew I have to leave now.

Looking back at neymar who is still sound asleep.I adored him before having to pack up my things.Which was not alot.Walking out of the bathroom after changing into a simple blouse and blue jeans.I took a look at the bed just to find neymar still sleeping soundly.

I carried my suitcase and myself out of the expensive hotel suite.The guards look at me as I smiled at them."The king is still asleep."I said and they nodded before I wish them a good day and wearing my black shades I step into the elevator right then I heard the suite door opened and a short cry of serayah.

I'm officially dead.

Nissa Mail✨

Yeeeee.Im actually so annoyed of neymar right now like bro she ask you to leave her alone.

Hopefully her plan succeeds!!😁

Anyways I also kinda feel bad for kenna.But anyways I leave that to your opinion comment and vote!!💓💓

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