Daughter of Ali Krieger

Chapter 17;

"What happened in Paris was the worst thing that happened to me. Ever. I was alone and had no one to go to for help. I was terrified to even leave my apartment after that for weeks. It wasn't until I kept throwing up everyday that I realised maybe something happened. I went to the hospital to see what was wrong and they told me I was pregnant. I left for here the following day and never looked back. I created a new life for myself and I went back to college and then changed to night school in my third trimester of the pregnancy. I had enough money to pay all the medical bills that came along with having Olivia. When I had her I had hope. Hope that everything was going to be going uphill from here on out. And I was right. Her and I have an incredible bond and I couldn't be more grateful for my little girl. She means the absolute world to me and nothing or nobody will ever take her away from me."

Emily's POV

"Mommy?"

I looked away from all the girls and turned to the door. Emily was standing there half asleep with Taylor by her side. I sighed and walked over and bent down in front of both of them.

"Come on and I'll read you two a story."
"Oh can you sing us a song?"
"Sure. Let me grab my guitar and I'll meet you two monkeys up there."

The both nodded and ran out of the room. I stayed put for a few seconds and closed my eyes and let out a deep sigh. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I turned around to see Ashlyn. I stood up and gave her a sad smile. I walked over to the corner of the room where my guitar was and picked it up. I walked out of the room and up the stairs. I walked to Liv's room but stopped outside the door when I heard them talking to someone.

"Aunt JJ, is my mommy happy?"
"Oh course she is Liv. She has you and you're her world."
"Then why does she cry at night?"
"She does?"
"Yes, but don't tell her I know that. It's meant to be a secret."
"I won't pet. I better go before she comes up. I'll see you two monkeys in the morning."
"Night Aunt JJ."

I stepped away from the door and the Jules appeared. She frowned and was about to say something but I put my finger up to my lips and pointed downstairs.

"We're talking about this later."
"Meet me in my room once everyone goes to bed."
"Deal."

I nodded and walked into Liv's room. They both smiled at me and sat up. I set my guitar against the dresser and walked over to the bed. I tucked them both in and sat on the bed.

"So little ones, what song would you like to hear?"
"Our song mommy."
"You sure? It's a little sad."
"I'm sure."
"Okay. Sit back so and relax."

I walked back over to the guitar and picked it up. I sat on the the sofa beside the bed and sat down on it. The girls smiled at me as I began strumming.

I stare at my reflection in the mirror
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.
No, no, no, no, no...
Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!

I continued singing and smiled when I saw Liv mouthing the words. Taylor looked at me in awe and had her mouth opened and her head tilted slightly. Just like Kelley does.

Brushing my hair-do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould, yeah!
The more I try the less it's working, yeah
'Cause everything inside me screams
No, no, no, no, no, no, no no... yeah.
Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart,
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!