You Left Me

Chapter One

Bpov

My heart didn't beat once for fifty years since. My lungs never waited for air, it didn't need it anymore. My skin is cold as ice. I can stand without a move for countless days. I don't need to blink. I could never blink forever. I don't have a soul. There is only an answer to that.

Undead. I am undead. Vampire. I am a vampire.

Ha, ha. Obviously. I am no Bella Swan. Not anymore. I've changed. Bella's soul is gone. I am a completely different person. I swear. I party. I hate. I walk without tripping. Etc.

I am a badass. I guess you could call me that.

Oh. One more thing. I drink human blood. I guess you've changed your mind. Call me an murder. Not badass. Okay. Maybe both.

Don't get me wrong. I still have feelings. I feel emotion. But human . . . they are nothing. Edward left me. I was nothing. I was human. I was nothing. But now, I am a vampire. I am not nothing anymore. These humans I drank is nothing. Just stupid humans. They are nothing. I am something. It makes me feel better.

"Hey, there! What are you doing? Are you lost? Do you need help? Wanna a ride?" A voice yelled. A human. He is only yards away. He had no idea how close he is to his death. "Oh." I purred, turning my head to the human. He is a male with plain brown hair, in around his forties. He had a mustache. "That would be not necessary."

He screamed as he saw my eyes. I rolled my eyes. I knew what he saw. My bloody red eyes. I smiled at him. He gasped and begged. "Please don't hurt me!"

I laughed. My laugh echoed in the forest. "Like that going to happen. Predators don't care for their prey."

"Predators? Prey? What are you talking about?" He asked, his tone shaking that he could badly talk. "Oh. You will find out soon enough." I purred again before I lunged at him.

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It took only one to make me full. I already have drunk two humans two days ago. I entered my three story house. It is a white covered house. I wanted plain color. I painted it myself ten years ago.

I fell limp on the couch that I bought a year ago. It is leather and it's white. I exhaled even though I don't need air. I just needed a break, and it helps calm me down, just like back then when I was human. It is just a thing that reminders my human memory. I was terrified if I lost my human memory. I know it could help me. I could just move on without any mourning.

But the thing is I was terrified to remember. The truth is I still love him. Deeply. I want to hold him in arms. I want to say the words, I love you to him. I want to crush my mouth into his. I want to hear him saying I love you to me. Just like when I was human. With him, everything was perfect. The world was spinning smoothly. But without him, the world seems stopped spinning. My heart froze in the place. Well, my heart literally is. But I meant something different. Like a hole in my heart. I feel alive with him. So vividly alive. My heart is still fully open to.....Edward. My soul has ripped away from me. He took it with him because I gave it to him. Not literally. I just feel my soul is ripped away because of him. I wanted to reach for a time travel even though it doesn't exist, so I can go back to time and be careful with the letter with an airplane to Florida tickets inside. I never used it. Obviously, it is expired. It is been fifty years.

But I also am terrified to forget. 

I sighed, still down on the couch. I don't know what I'm doing. Not that I'm tried, of course, vampires don't get tried. Just that I'm not doing something. I'm alone. It is always like that every day. I guess I'm been lonely since I've become a vampire. 

This is all Edward's fault. . . .