A Whole Melancholy of Lovers

needed

the first time i gave myself to you

there was this pain in my heart

and after you climbed off of me
i clasped my hands around my cross
and i spoke to my god 
i told him i was not sorry for it
but that i was happy with you

and that i was safe and god should not

worry about me
i told him that i was on my own for now

but that i would be back for guidance eventually 
and now, here i am
with a prayer crossing my lips nearly 

every night.