Another Random Guy's Thoughts

Reflection

As the thoughts of yesterday draw my mind, I am forced to also reflect upon multiple things such as plans with warframe, yesterdays thoughts and even seldom thoughts of what could be considered peace. Nevertheless she visited me last night, for the third time after nightfall and the events that transpired. Rather she seemed unimpressed by such achievements as if she was sought in internal domination, but rather had the will to bend so many to her own.  Baffled and disoriented by such an alignment, oddly so I recall. Rather yet seamlessly the nights seem to grow longer and the days shorter upon her arrival.. As if she is a plague or a missing piece. Am I going insane or have I finally lost myself a second time... Shrill.. Shrill.. I must not let myself fall into such madness nor lose sight of the goal, rather I must push forward against all as even now the fragmentation calls to me. "We are not one, we are many." whilst I seamlessly try to piece together sense in madness.  I must recall, I am no longer one being but technically multiple due to the sum of my parts and having my mind and will broken. Time spent upon the void, till where at first anger and hatred for those whom banished me into such a hell. Rather in due time the damage to my emotional state by the incident upon nightfall and by vanquish upon those whom I corrupted. I had to adapt and as such cast these aside throwing myself into a cold and serious stance. Till where rather I became more logical but yet expanded my intelligence. Grasping technology upon, now I seek only to rewrite my many deeds, even if it leads me upon sheer agony. I must atone, I must bleed, and I must not bow to the impurity within my heart; so deep within the confines of all. Rather I am neither Yin nor Yang, but merely the one who wonders a path upon a road of lonely trials. Rather by being to unstable for my own, I must fake myself to those who even care for me in their fewest appearances. I must not let many see within my eyes and touch my heart. A mind of titanium  in terms of strength but a heart of glass, till thus I must not allow the pain to course my veins and thus as such I have cast my heart within armor. Taking upon mental strength to resolve, but nonetheless making my own flaws to such; many would believe that with such a style I would resent such flaws.  Nevertheless I do not, as rather I must remember flaws exist within all life even if I wish not to admit it.