Another Random Guy's Thoughts

Well I'm back

I'm aware I haven't updated in a while that and given life has been interesting to say the least.. Well last night as of writing this I had to prevent another from suicide of the betrayed and broken hearted.. As on the other end I had to prevent another from losing themself, whilst attempting to stop the suicide. But being my flaw I can't cross press emotions and had to call to another. Leading into another night without sleep, which in itself normally isn't a problem for me. Rather but when it leads to emotional exhaustion as well as mental exhaustion.. Then well.. It becomes a burden but! And by but I mean leading into the next.. Today.. As of 9:45 AM EST one I seek to be intertwined with by both heart and body has gone into surgery for reasons that will not be discussed.. Yet due to my weakened state I have been in fear of loss and even weeks before in fear of loss.. Rather I fear of losing her and what I will do and become if she is lost..