Chapter 7: Command
When I got home, I went straight to Vincent's room. Pagkatapos ng pag-uusap namin ni Eunice ay bumili lang kami ng ilang mga damit at umuwi na din. Habang nasa byahe ay hindi ko pa rin makalimutan ang sinabi niya sa akin.
Is this the right thing to do? I'm not really sure, but just like what Eunice said, trying is not harmful. It's actually good. It would give you the answer of your 'what ifs'.
Kumatok ako sa kwarto ni Vincent at pumasok na rin ng hindi man lang naghihintay ng sagot. Naabutan ko siyang nakaharap sa kanyang laptop at may mga papers sa kanyang study table. I went to his place and stared on what he's doing.
"Hey" maikli niyang sabi ng hindi man lang ako tinignan. He's wearing a plain t-shirt and shorts. I can see by the look on his face that he's busy.
"What are you doing?" I sat beside him. I took one of the papers and read it.
"Research paper" aniya. I rose my eyebrows and looked at him.
"Next week pa ito diba?" I asked him. As far as I remember, the due date is next week, Thursday.
He looked at me "Yap. Tinatapos na namin para wala na kaming dapat pang gawin" I slowly nodded.
Naisip ko tuloy ang Research paper namin. Data pa lang ang meron kami at halos wala pa kami sa kalahati. I'm really amazed that Vincent is doing this right now. Knowing him, he likes procastination so much.
"Nagawa mo na ba ang pinapagawa ni Tracy sa'yo?" He asked me still looking at his laptop. Bigla akong napatingin sakanya. I slapped my face because of irritation. How could I forget that?!
"Not yet" aniya ko. Nilapag ako ang papel na hawak ko at tinapik ang kanyang likod. Tinignan niya ako't tinaasan ng kilay.
"May I borrow your laptop for awhile? I'll do it" ngumuso ako sakanyang laptop. He gazed me with an unreadable look and gave a space for me.
I sat there. I opened facebook and saw his timeline. Pinasadahan ko siya ng tingin at nakita kong inaayos niya ang mga papers sa table. Tinignan ko saglit ang messages niya at lumantad saakin ang sandamakmak na chats. I know it is private but I'm just curious. I really have this undescribable feeling about him. He has a secret and I'm itching to know it.
Halos hindi ko kilala ang mga nagme-message sakanya. He didn't even dare to look or read some of the messages. Most of them are unread. I continued exploring, hoping to find something different but ended up with nothing.
I decided to open my account instead. I checked Tracy's post which is our video trailer and poster. Dumoble na ang views, likes at comments kumpara kanina. I don't know what caption I should put. I suck at this.
Dinedelete ko lang din ang mga tina-type ko. I don't want to catch too much attention but we need it! Kung i-share ko na lang kaya? It's easier! But Tracy won't like it. I should put something, even if it's short.
Pagkapos kong mag type ay i-pinost ko na. Bahala na. Sumandal ako sa upuan at nag scroll sa facebook ko saglit. Wala pa akong nakikitang trailer o poster ng ibang section. I wonder if we are the only one who did this kind of promotion? I accepted all my friend requests and logged out from my account afterwards.
Tinignan ko si Vincent na ngayon ay hawak ang kanyang cellphone at nagta-type. Tumayo ako at pumunta sa kama niya upang humiga. Tumingin ako sa kisame at huminga ng malalim. 3 months to go before our moving up and still, my track isn't clear. I'm still deciding on what course should I access. I like comparing myself to others, aiming to surpass them. I know it's not healthy but being insecure is just normal for me. Whenever I see someone or something that is better than me, I will do an action about it. I don't want to be a loser. I always end up having the things that I like.
