You Will Not Have My Hate

Part 1

"Are you dead serious? Join that case?? Nope, I wouldn't allow you,"

Yuzuru throws himself on the couch, leaving Javier--the man on the middle of his explanations--hanging with his unfinished words.

"But you joined the investigation team 3 months earlier. Are you leaving me? We are not one team anymore?" Javi make one step closer towards the couch.
"The investigation team is different. We're working behind the case. But, you're joining the Evacuation Team. Is it something comparable with my team?"

Finally Javier erases their distance by sitting next to the younger one. "I just hate to be left behind,"
"Havi, you don't understand!" Yuzu facing the man next to him, "you could be killed out there!"
Javier makes a pause. He doesn't want this quarrel getting any worse than this.

After facing the older man, Yuzu turns back. He gave Javier his cold shoulder.

"This team needs me," he began to speak again--hoping the other one understand.
"I need you, don't you think about that?!" Yuzu throws his unbelievable looks towards him.
"This is where I need you," He smiled, "you could protect me with your position,"
"Are you trying to bargain your life with this case?"

Javier smiles. Bigger than before. He reaches out Yuzu's waist. Holding it, bring the smaller man's body into his figure, "I don't have the analytic skill like you have in the investigation team. I am just being me, the guy who always works in the field to protect you,"
"I can perfectly protect myself. Did you forget I was black-belted karateka?"
"No, it's not that. I want to protect you what anything might harm you later,"

Yuzu sigh in the next moment, "Havi you know it's not easy to facing this case. As I worked for this case, it is one of the most difficult case I've ever work with. So that you know, I don't want you to get down there,"
"So that's why I want to get down," Javi enclose his hands around Yuzu's waist-secretly hoping that younger man could agree towards his decisions, "we are protecting each other. You with your position behind the desk, and I am protecting you from the field," Javi explained with the biggest smile he has so Yuzuru could understand, and somehow that stone heart of his could be melted by his mere wish to have joined the Evac Team.

He still couldn't buy it. Yuzu shook his head.
Last try--"imagine, if something happened--let's say the Evacuation Team was failed and they're facing toward the HQ--toward you while I am not part of the team, and I couldn't protect you, how devastated I could be?"

The younger turn his body facing Javier. A big sigh comes out his breath, he looked outside the window helplessly, "I just hate the idea of you being injured......"
"As long as to protect you, I would never apologize to you, not once," For a moment, they can't let their own egos loose for seconds.
"I hate you," Yuzu squint his eyes. Unpleasant look he gave it to Javi.
"But I can't hate you...."

"See?! that's exactly what you will say," frustrated, Yuzu's expressions changing. Anger that can't be turned into words, bad feelings. The grunts of devastating.
"I can't promise you I would not get hurt but... here's what I can promise," sloppily, he reach out for Yuzu's hands. He gathered them in one grasp, entwined their fingers into braid, "you will not have my hate, that is what I can promise to you," the looks Javier gave, grows unnamed emotional that spreading inside his vein. "Even if it turns out bad, out of predictions, and you will hate me because of not listening to you and joined the field team instead,...." Javi look deep into those dim stares in front of him, "I promise, I would not hate you,"

Yuzu's shoulder relaxed as his sight looking calm. Smiling, Javier still buys his way toward Yuzu's smiles.
"How can I hate you," Yuzu grasps Javier's hands, tightly closer it so there were not any gap between their fingers.

"Come here, you" he opens his hand gather the smaller boy into his arms,"you will always have my words."