AU Kohona High

Competition?......Please.

Look at his face lolz. Sorry I can't help it. In my mind he's saying: "You're funny. You actually think you're better than me? Puh-lease. Bye b*ch." cue the sassy tone! Btw this chap is kinda a filler it's just about Dei's angst feelings. Trigger warnings! Also self harm and a big lecture at the end about depression. Stay tuned!×××
After school
Dei pov
"Tobi-chan hurry up!" Sasori yelled at the idiot who forgot his fricken shoes. Like who the fuck does that. Dumbass. Urgh it makes me so mad that Sasori is even hanging out with him. I'm just like a third wheel. Or the one annoying friend that everyone secretly hates. "Sasori-kun! I'm heeeeeeereee!" Tobi yelled running down the hill and jumping into his arms. But that means nothing. I mean sure Sasori always drops me when I do that but whatever. I followed down down the road. Till we came to some thick woods. "I forgot about the woods in your backyard. It's so cool how you have this." Sasori says in awe. My house is surrounded by woods though and he never wants to go. "Sasori why do you put up with him? It's so obvious that he likes you. It makes me really jealous you know" Tobi whines. "Aww don't be babe. Trust me he'll get over it. Plus he's my friend and friends have each others back." Senpai answers pecking Tobi on the cheek. Disgusting. Friend? That's all I am to him not even a best friend? They continued to walk until they reached the back door. Tobi walked in and immediately started kissing Senpai. I guess it's just Sasori now. I just...since when were they dating? Eww. Gross. Sasori no! You don't love him you can't! "Why?"I whispered softly and ran away. I slammed open the door not bothering to check if father was in a meeting. "Honey/Buddy?" mom and dad exclaimed as I ran up the stairs. I collapsed on my bed and curled up. "Honey sweetheart what happened?" Mom gushed rushing into the room. Dad walked in next. "Hey buddy what's wrong?" he asked. I could tell them but I don't feel like crying right now. I don't feel anything. I feel numb. "Nothing just mad at some ugly ass bitch who decided to take senpai away from me." I mumbled. "I can't understand you babe" mom said rubbing my back. "I said nothing mom. Now stop worrying so much" I said lifting my head a bit so she could hear. "Ok darling if you say so" mom muttered softly. Dad shook his head and walked out of the room. Sorry I'm such a disappoint dad. I'm sorry I lied to you mom. But most of all I'm sorry I left you my little friends. Reaching towards my medicine cabinet. I saw a small silver chain flash. That's what I was going to give Sasori on his birthday. He'd probably throw it away just like he did with all my other presents. I grabbed onto my small blade. Welcome back depression. I pressed it hard against my skin not enough to break the skin hard enough to rash it. I created 10 itchy rashes on my side. It stung but the pain was welcoming. My skin became red and slightly swollen from so many rashes. But so what it doesn't matter if it turns ugly. I am already. I swiftly cut a long deep line on my side. The blood trickled down getting on my pants. At least it's not on the floor. I made a slow and painful one right through it watching the blood gush out. This is all your fault Sasori. But whatever. This is what I get for being that not cool guy who depends on his friends and doesn't have any best friends. It's what I get for being so ugly and fat that nobody wants to carry me. This is what I get for actually thinking that anyone could like me. This is what I get for being such a disappoint to the world. The world this wonderful world....it doesn't need me an ugly useless boy who looks like a girl. Sakura's right I do look like a drag queen. I'm fake,ugly, and have no purpose so I get money in cheap ways. If I do grow up I'll be the one assassin working in an office filling out reports for people and being forgotten and underappreciated.
No pov
Dei continued into the night bullying himself and cutting himself. But he never shed a tear and he never cried out.
To those who have depression. I know this is a hard chapter to read. But it's a serious matter. A lot if people say 'go get help' and stuff when some people with depression don't have anyone to turn to or any money for a therapist. Some people are trapped in the dark. Some people have abusive parents,no friends, are bullied at school,do drugs, and others things that can lead to cutting and suicidal thoughts. Now I'm no expert but I have like 5 friends who are suicidal and it's really scary. Cause one of them got hospitalized for trying to commit suicide. And that made me feel like I failed them and that they didn't need me around and I felt so terrible. Maybe you know what it's like not knowing if you're friend is alive or not and that feeling of not knowing when you're gonna hva someone taken away is horrible. So to those with depression just know you're not alone and it's ok to cut just try to do it less and less everytime and when stress builds up just write about,yell about it,sing about it, dance about it ,even sleep about it. Just don't end you're life. God created you for a reason and even if you don't belive in God know that you're here for a reason. I belive in soulmates and imagine how they're gonna feel thinking they have no soulmate and go into depression like you because you committed suicide. I'm not saying it's you're fault I'm saying just think before you do. Love and take care of yourself and if not for you then do it for the world because the world needs you.