happier ↳ neymessi

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dear diary,

it's been longer than a month now,

i think i've been adjusting to him not being around anymore.

i feel perfectly fine, every now and then.

i swear.

but when you go a long time without thinking or feeling anything whatsoever,

you are doomed

because when you do feel something, the feelings hit you right back.

and that's what happened tonight.

i haven't written in my diary for a month and now,

here i am.

with feelings exposed.

i saw him with his new teammates and i was fine.

i saw him happy and i was fine.

but then i found old videos of us in 2015.

the best year of our lives.

the best season of our lives.

we were SO happy.

he was so happy.

what happened to us?

what made us grow apart?

i know he felt what i did too and for some reason

i think he felt it more than i did.

i want to know,

does he feel the same way as i do?

.

i am so happy with my team right now

we've got our important points

and everything is going smoothly

but i just miss the neymessi

magic.

don't you?

- leo

[ i think i have an idea for this book, the next part will be different ]