happier ↳ neymessi

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neymar's pov

dear diary,

i haven't written in here since last year.

i was thinking of writing a letter one day,

to my favorite person.

the person i looked up to every day.

but i bet he's moved on

i bet he's doing fine without me,

i always thought he lost interest in me

maybe he did?

i hate the heartache i feel when i look back,

i pretend that everything is fine

i pretend that i'm happy here,

i mean i guess i am happy...

but i can't explain it.

i still feel empty,

no matter what success i get,

no matter what awards i recieve,

no matter how much i win,

i will never get that passion that i got at barca.

i will never have a partner who were selfless like him.

there's no one like messi

and he can never be replaced.

it was so stupid of me to think that i'd ever find someone greater than him.

no one will treat me the way he did.

but why did i always think he lost interest in me?

i can't help but feel paranoid.

i loved him, i really did.

and i still do

in bits.

ney.