dear, jack
i know you're probably wondering why i wrote this and i know you're probably wondering why i killed myself. i'll explain in just a second. i've been depressed ever since i started middle school. bullying was constant for me. i would always get picked on by all the kids just because i was "quiet". i got raped by my own father at the age of thirteen. he would sexually abuse me after that too. my mom died of cancer on my sixteenth birthday too. i would still get picked on behind your back in high school. i'm sorry that i didn't tell you but i didn't know how. i had no real friends except you. you were my happiness. and then you became a famous actor and i became a full -time youtuber. i started getting hate because of my voice and looks. i didn't tell you. i'm so sorry, jack. i love you. i've been in love with you since the day i layed my eyes on you. you were my true happiness. i will always love you and i know you love me. i'm sorry that i left you. please don't hate me. please forgive me. i had to do this. i couldn't take it anymore. the pain was too much to handle. i love you so much, jack, you and y/c/n. please take good care of our daughter. don't let her get hurt like i did. tell her that mommy is in a better and happier place and explain to her about my problems when she's old enough to understand. i love you, jack. this definitely won't be the last time i write to you. i wrote you a lot of letters. i love you❤️
love, y/n
