unresponsive (camren)

seventeen

lauren: merry christmas camz!! 🎉 ⛄️

sent at 12:17 am

delivered

lauren: i hope you're doing okay

sent at 12:18 am

delivered

lauren: and i hope you get everything
want this christmas

sent at 12:27 am

delivered

lauren: i cant believe it's been almost a year since we've been apart

sent at 12:28 am

delivered

lauren: in a few days it'll be a year

sent at 12:31 am

delivered

lauren: i wish you were here to eat all
the christmas cookies i made with me

sent at 12:38 am

delivered

lauren: i don't wanna get fat alone

sent at 12:47 am

delivered

lauren: just kidding i'll stop

sent at 12:48 am

delivered

lauren: i really wish you were here though

sent at 1:06 am

delivered

lauren: i remember when we would
stay up every year on christmas eve past midnight to bake them

sent at 1:08 am

delivered

lauren: i remember one year i burnt
them and you got so pissed off at me

sent at 1:11 am

delivered

lauren: but in the end you helped me
make new ones and they turned out
beautiful just like you

sent at 1:13 am

delivered

lauren: i heard you got back with shrek
boy

sent at 1:16 am

delivered

lauren: how come he gets another chance
with you but i don't?

sent at 1:17 am

delivered

lauren: i mean if he makes you happier
then whatever

sent at 1:19 am

delivered

lauren: it feels so empty and quiet without
you here

sent at 1:23 am

delivered

lauren: you brang so much life to this
house and without you it's just lonely

sent at 1:28 am

delivered

lauren: i was gonna spend christmas with
my family or my friends but they couldn't
make it this year

sent at 1:29 am

delivered

lauren: so i'm all alone this christmas

sent at 1:37 am

delivered

lauren: but i deserve it. i deserve to be alone
and unhappy. i deserve everything that's
happened to me since you left me.

sent at 1:38 am

delivered

lauren: most importantly i deserved you
leaving me because i did you so wrong

sent at 1:46 am

delivered

lauren: you look so much happier
and healthier and wanna keep it that
way because i care about you

sent at 1:48 am

delivered

lauren: i miss you

sent at 1:53 am

delivered

lauren: i love you baby

sent at 1:58 am

read at 2:34 am

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it's gonna get so fucking sad after this chapter