What's Real

Derrick Meets Derrick

Nadia's POV

3 years later...

Derrick always wished to have a normal child. He wanted his child to be much different than himself. It worked out too, Dj is just like Derrick's personality but nothing like his mental state. He looks just like him, acts like him, and is just like him in almost every way except for his mental illness. Dj is smart.

Very smart.

He learns quick and he's not the type to forget what he learns either.

Derrick got his last wish. He got his dream child.

I don't want Dj growing up thinking has dad is a deadbeat, so today is the first time I'm taking him to see where his dad really is.

It's amazing how many things Derrick wanted came true and more.

He wanted a kid that was like him, but not like him.

He got it.

He wanted a kid with me.

He got it.

He even has the same birthday of Dj.

November 8.

Dj is 3 now, so I figured I would take him to see his dad now, then at 6 years old because he won't really remember doing it this young.

"Dj, you ready?" I asked.

"Yeah" he said running to the car.

I put him in his car seat and then got in the driver seat.

"Before we go, I need to tell you that if your dad was here you know he would love you, right?"

"Yes" he said.

"Good, never forget that"

I started driving out to his burial site.

I know this is about to tear me apart. I thought.

Once we arrived I got Dj out and we walked to his tombstone.

"Dj, this is where your dad is." I said trying not to cry.

He doesn't get it.

"It's he coming?"

"... He's here"

"It's don't see anyone?" He said looking around.

"Come here"

He walked over to me.

"Dj, before you were born. Your dad passed away, he's in heaven spiritually but he's here really physically"

"But if he's here physically why can't I see him"

"You won't understand now, but he's underneath us"

He looked down.

"He's in the ground?"

I nodded.

"See Dj, when someone dies, they are put underground... But you see that stone?"

"Yeah"

"That's how we'll know where he is all the time"

He got off of my lap and hugged the tombstone.

That's what made me lose my composer.

"I love you, daddy" he said.

That made me cry even harder.

I guess I was scared that he wouldn't love Derrick because he died before Dj was born.

I was wrong.

"You ready to go?" I asked once I got my voice back after crying.

"Yeah" he said.

"Alright... come on" I said grabbing his hand.

I put him back in the car seat and got in the front seat.

I looked at my phone and looked at my Screensaver which was the last picture I ever took of Derrick the week before he ran away.

"Dj" I called.

He looked at me.

"This what your dad looked like."

He looked at it for a long time then gave it back.

"I want to be like him" he said.

I smiled.

The drive home was silent. Dj fell asleep and I knew when he woke up be would be hungry so I ordered some pizza when we got home.

I'm currently in college, I'm a sophomore in college and I want tell become a nurse and maybe a doctor if I'm up to it one day.

I just bought an apartment and soon when I start working as a nurse we'll move into something bigger.

Derrick was only 19 when he committed suicide. I just wish he would've gotten the news I was planning to give to him the day he ran away.

I feel like if he would've known, he wouldn't have ended his life.

But me not telling him was part of God's plan.

He would have been 23 if he were still here.

But it's what he wanted, he wanted to see his mom.

I'm glad he got that wish because the look on his face when he missed her showed how much it was killing him.

I just hope he's happy, I know he's an angel...

So, I hope he's happy....

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Thanks for all the support.

Don't worry this book isn't over. A sequel is coming next.

Comment book names for the next book, cause I need help with that.

Also, comment why you liked this book so much cause a couple months back I was about to delete it.