"Love Yourself" that's what I was told when I first cried in the washroom.
I didn't know ,I would take those words so seriously .
I loved Myself all my high school.
Never bothered myself because of bullies.
Never stopped eating my favourite Cup Cake...
I took one last glance at myself in the mirror ,Perfect! Red and Black never betray me.
"Let's go Bitch "Mell called from downstairs.
"Coming Bitch !"I shouted as I sprinted towards the stairs.
'Bitch',I like that word , particularly when I wear a short Black dress exposing my white fleshy legs . I may be fat but I got more flesh which makes me more beautiful.
I didn't see it that way ,before I met Mellissa Jordan ,Mell in short.
Sweat beads traced my face before I reached Mell . "You are sweating like a pig" she laughed. "Thanks"I snapped taking my hanky out to wipe the sweat .
It has become my habit to say thanks for every insult and compliment . I learned it in my school.
When you say thanks to people for things they did wrong ,they get confused to irritate you again.
"You should have used the elevator"Mell said as she opened her snap chat . "I don't wanna lose the bet"I said giving a pout for our selfie number 12.
Our room is in the second floor and thank God for that. In a building of 8 floors aren't you Lucky to have the one near to the ground.
"Hey Mell ,you look gorgeous" we turn back at the admirer. It is Gwen .My biggest enemy.
God knows why she is still with me. She was once a super sexy girl in high school who got a right to bully all the nerds and fatties.
Here,she doesn't stand a chance between Mell and Claire ,the two drop dead cutest chicks with good hearts as their looks are . Gwen lacks a heart like that.She doesn't know how to accept a Person for who they are and not for how they look like.
"Thanks ,Gwen"Mell says smiling too much ,which means "now fuck off". Gwen swings out but suddenly halts . "You look good like a slut"she says.
"You too,but you need more silicon "I snap back.
Gwen gives an angry glare and runs directly into her boy friend ,Taylor Falcon ,the best bad boy in History.
"Woah!Calm Down !!"he says supporting Gwen's tiny frame.
"Take care of her ,Taylor"Mell says and he winks at her as he and Gwen go past our sight into their goddamn sexy car.
"Let's go"I push Mell ,to the side walk where our cab is waiting.
***************** 15th July ,8:45 pm.
As I walked through the crowd I smelt smoke and alcohol. God ,please supply Oxygen.
I look at Mell who is already talking with people. Being thin,she made it fast through the crowd and I am stuck here.
"It felt like century "I say catching Mell . "I thought I lost you"she laughed at me.
We both walked to the purple themed tables and took our chairs.
In no time ,people gathered around us ,sorry ,they gathered around Mell like she is some celebrity.
I give fake smiles to everyone who Meet my gaze and hang my head down into my phone ,checking the number of hearts I got on my Instagram picture . Obviously I got more hearts on the pictures,where Mellissa is tagged.
Every Day ,I hate Mellissa ,a thousand times ,because of Jealousy. But I love her a million more times than the hate count. I should say 'I respect and admire her' because I never loved any one except my Mom .
As the blah-blah noise increases ,my head hurts like I am drunk.
"Are you okay?"Mell asks. "Yeah,I am"I say rising from my seat ,my worry now is if there are any impressions on the seat because of my 150 pounds flesh.
Thank God ! There are no marks.
"I want some air "I smile at her and she agrees with a fake smile. She doesn't want me to leave her alone but I can't bear this head ache.
I walk past the crowd and noise and enter a serene place with just one person standing with his back pointed at me. No harm in taking some space right ?
I walk slowly trying not to make too much sound of my pointed heels.
I take the corner of the balcony and watch the rhythmic noise made by the New York City .
I have no Intention in saying Hello to this stranger though ,he may be from my University.
"Hi"he says as I think of not saying that damn word. "Hi"I return his word.
He shifts his eyes to me and I can clearly see ,he is judging me ,now he will say "I am going to puke". Is that not the word ,every cute guy tells a Fat Girl ?
"I am Chance Carlson "he says instead. My eyes get wide after he extends his hand for a shake. I give my hand trembling . He looks deep into my Black eyes as if he is digging into my soul. I blink furiously and my hands get all sweaty while they are still in contact with his.
He laughs as he losens the grip letting my hands go.
"Your hands are soft"he says . Is he joking? "Plump!"I say regaining my temper.
"Plump? ,That's a beautiful word "he laughs again. God ,his laugh is making me want him.
Did I just get a crush on him?Huh ?
I wipe the thought away. The only guy ,I have a crush on is Damion Falcon ,my Prince Charming.
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