Community service

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"Ethan" I sighed

"I'm going to be there with you" he yelled

"I wish I never fucking got into those worthless fights and did the other stupid shit" I yelled in return

"Well you did and now you have to face the consequences" he clenched his jaw

"I'm tired of life, I hate myself!" I yelled running up the stairs

I ran to my bedroom and locked the door, I quickly got my box with a stash of meaningful things and opened it. I got my little notebook and pen and started writing I heard knocks on the door but I ignored them

"Open the door or I'm kicking it down!" Ethan yelled

"I'm not doing anything bad just trust me please I'll open the door in a little!" I yelled in return

I heard a groan and silence filled the room

I looked at the box and then decided to start writing on the paper

Dear Aiden,
you were my motherfucking best friend I love you asshole and I'd like to say that I'm watching over you. I know that you're going to make it big with your music so please don't give up and I so far love your song treat you better continue writing it don't give up on it! Again I love you thanks for being there for me through thick and thin. Bye.

Sincerely, Bria

I folded it, placed it in the box and started writing Grayson's

Dear Grayson,
Please take care of yourself and brother, I'll look over you two I want you guys to focus on your future and not on me I'm not important. You two are intelligent guys put it to use, chase your dreams. We may have not known each other for time but I'd like to say that I love you and I'm sorry

Sincerely, Brianne M.

I ripped it off the notebook and folded it. I put it away and started writing

Dear parents and aunt,
thank you for raising me and for giving me away I knew that you guys sent me to live here permanently and it's not my aunts fault that it had to end like this, it's mine. I love you two; I love you aunt thanks for the amazing gifts and time ily.

Sincerely, Anne

I placed it in the box and knew what I was doing to write next

Dear Dolans,
Cameron, thank you for being with the twins and helping them out, Sean and Lisa thank you for not using a condom

Sincerely, Brianne

I put it in there and started writing one for boy that I loved

Dear Ethan,
You were very important to me and I'd like you to know that I know that we both had strong feelings for each other we may have not know each other for a long time but I know when I like someone but you, I didn't like you I adored you. I really did, I cared for you even through the rough times. But Ethan, please take care of yourself and the ones that you love I'll be watching over you.i love you.

Sincerely, Brianne Jane Moretti

I looked at the box with the papers and meaningful belongings one last time and closed it. I sprayed my perfume on it and placed it back and hid the box, I walked over to the door and unlocked it finding the boys by the stairs

"I'm okay" I said

They all turned and ran to me

"What did you do?" Ethan asked looking at my body looking for cuts

"Nothing" I said

I held back the tears because I knew what I was going to do, and not in a good way. I swallowed and bit my bottom lip

I'm sorry