~Good Day~ | ~Bad Day~

~Change~

August. 5th, 2017
9:20pm

Again this pain in my chest has returned. It tightens so much I feel I'm being suffocated.

Coughing violently. Almost wanting to puke.

Almost actually puking.

Again I begin to lose myself in this pain.

Trying ever so hard to keep my head clear.

Struggling. Failing. Coping.

Fighting the thoughts in my head.

I finally took the time to look at myself in the mirror.

To look at how I look and how far my mindset has change.

I hated the way I looked. I was so insecure trying to fix how I looked.

I cared so much of what people thought of my looks how I acted.

I would put on this fake act, fake smile, fake everything.

It took me 5 years to finally not care.

Not care of what people thought.

I finally let go.

After 5 years of caring of what others though I let go.

I'm now inspired by what I've become.

I've inspired those around me.

I'm a new person and it feels amazing.

I'm still the same kid but with a new mindset.

I've care for those around me.

Even though I fight my own war everyday I'm doing good.