Navigating Life

CHAPTER 21

"Vhat!? I muzt haff mizheard. I zought you said you are pregnant?" He said , sticking his fingers in his ears.

"I said that because I AM pregnant. Your ears are fine." I rolled my eyes.

"Eez eet okay if I faint right now?"

"You faint and I'll tell Sulu who hid his fencing equipment."

"Not fair." He whined.

"All's fair in love and war. And this is a bit of both."

"Zo...Sanya...how long..I mean , when....erm , how far along are you?" He gulped.

"6 weeks."

"Oh...zat means... Doctor McCoy's offize?"

"Or our room?"

"Eef our baby asks where , eet will be our room and eef any friend , zen Bones' office."

'Our baby'. Hearing him say that took away all the pain and anxiety I'd had the past week. He wasn't angry. He wasn't leaving me. He wasn't disappointed. 'Our baby'.

Suddenly , I felt my stomach churn. Oh , come on. I tried to keep it down while I ran to the nearest bathroom , not in the least bothered about my astonished...is he my boyfriend again?

Vomit first , stress about relationship later , Sanya.

After a long , disgusting time in the bathroom I walked away. I had no idea pregnancy is so uncomfortable. I mean , I knew but I never really I thought about it. I'dways wanted to be a mother but wow. If this is just the first month I don't think I want to see what the other months are like.
And to think , I'll be puking on a daily basis for almost 4 months.

I wondered where Pavel would be. I supposed the Bridge. He does have duty there now.

So , I walked off to the Bridge.

"Permission to come aboard , Captain?" I asked.

"Granted." He replied , without looking up.

"Captain , could you excuse Pavel for just five minutes? I have some baby stuff to talk to him about."

"Reza! I didn't see that it was you. Congrats! I'm sure you'll make a brilliant mom."

"Thanks , Captain. So Pavel...?"

He didn't pay heed to me and insisted the whole Bridge crew congratulate me. Which took almost another hour.

"Captain. Please. I'm exhausted. Exhaustion isn't good for the baby."

"Of course! What a moron I am."

I believe Bones would agree heartily.

"So , can Pavel help me to bed?"

"Of course. Your duty in the MedBay is over , Sanya?"

"Yes , I had the morning shift."

"Go , Chekov. Help your girlfriend."

He blushed and walked up to me and slid his arm around me waist. I put my arm on his shoulder.

We walked to our room.
"Where haff you been staying the week?"

"With Bones. Or Sam or Deep or Jas. I just bounced around."

"I am zorry. I vas an idiot."

"I told you, it's fine. It was probably too soon."

"How about instead of being engaged ve be engaged to be engaged?"

"Interesting." I mulled over the idea."Sounds like a plan."

"Vhat about our parents?"

"I'll tell mine on shore leave. I'll be too far along for them to kill me. They may have been okay with us but they sure as hell will not be fine with my pregnancy. You?"

"Uh...zame time. Zey are zure zey will come zis time."

"Ok, what do you want? A girl or boy?"

"As long as eet iz healthy and happy."

"Me. Diplomatic , aren't we? And me too."

We got ready for bed. A tee of Pav's and a pair of shorts was enough for me.

"Sanya?" He said , tracing my stomach

"Not today , Pav. Later. I'm too tired. I didn't just say that to get away from Jim."

"Not zat. Entirely." He cleared his throat." I juzt..I lowve you. আমি তোমায় ভালোবাসি. Я люблю тебя."

I teared up. Why ? Why does pregnancy have to make me emotional and all cry-y?

"I love you. Я люблю тебя. আমি তোমায় ভালোবাসি."

I'm not even 15 and have never been pregnant. I honestly don't know what it feels like. But I tried my best. Thanks for reading.