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The sky wasn't this blue, no I'm not just saying this because I feel it. I can see it turn darker by the second. And I know the reason too.... My insecurities.
It's my mind playing games with me again.
I'm THAT girl that nobody wants to be seen with and even more nobody wants to acknowledge. I've had acquaintances but not friends.
The things that describe me better are such, that maybe most of us feel to be very normal. But maybe in my case these things have become extremely vulnerable for me and that too to such an extent that ......it SCARY.
I'm a student. And yeah I'm homeschooled. So I truly don't mind when people say I'm no fun. It's absolutely fine . You see, I've always received this kind of attention from people that is always fake and makes you feel that you are the BEST there could be. But the truth hits you when you step into the real world.
Money can't give you all the happiness that you deserve, and setting that aside, doesn't let you live in peace. We humans are such delusional beings that we always mistake wealth to be happiness.
Take it from me, that is if you want to, being rich can do nothing good to a person. I am the daughter to a multimillionaire, and I don't like it will be an understatement.
Being rich only brings unwanted attention from unwanted people of difficult interests. It makes you an easier target to mass hate and also makes it easier for yourself to point out your weaknesses way quickly than you like.
It makes you feel exposed. It makes you CRAZY....and slowly kills you from the inside.
I have everything that anybody could probably want. But what I don't have ......what i never truly had....Happiness.
It saddens me to see how the world reacts to someone who can't deal with the fake complications of this world called REALITY. I've received a lot of help about it. But it has made it further difficult for me.
I don't trust anyone. Nobody. People only lie. And we all are caught in a lie........... the truth is that, nothing true really exists.
This world is no place for a weak person like me. It belongs to people like my dad, the ones who can kill other weak men to get what he wants. Survival of the fittest, after all, that's what we have followed for so long.
I'm suffocating.......the pressure of keeping my mind clear and positive is killing me. It is slowly killing me.
I understand it's intolerable to have me around but I can't help it.
I know I'm useless and I know I don't deserve to disturb others with my annoying presence............ just ...you don't have to remind me all the time.
I'm really sorry for existing..............
Sorry Dad.
Sorry Mom.
Sorry World.
Sorry..................
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Hello dear readers,
If you are reading this, it means you have made it through this EXTREMELY depressing chapter.
I'm sorry if this made you sad but trust me a better sun is yet to rise.
Hope to find you in my next chapter. Till then ....
#Stay You cuz you are awesome
Signing off
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