"I'm disgusted. Ethan, I know you aren't listening to these but I need to say I'm fucking sorry, I have to say it out loud because I can't believe I said that yesterday. I'm sorry, baby, God- that was so disgusting.
I'm trying so hard to stay strong for you, but I can't. Nothing is the same without you, nothing is good. You made everything in my life so much better, and now that you're gone everything just feels fucking pointless.
I miss the feeling of your arms around me. I miss your eyes. I miss your fucking voice, your humour. The sound of your laugh. I miss your lips; everything about them. You had this way of saying my name, like it would be the last thing you'd ever say again. It was beautiful. Ethan, I- I can't be strong. I can't be strong. This is too much."
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breathe me (e.dolan)
Fanfictionin which a sad girl leaves voicemails for a dying boy hoping that one day, maybe, he'll pick up the phone. completed august 23, 2017 voicemail format, lowercase intended
