Sex God's Sassy Girl (SGS#5)

Chapter 24

Tracy

his secrets are all about chloe, sinisikreto niya sa akin na tinutulungan niya si Chloe for this passed weeks, wala siyang ibang ginawa kundi ang tulungan si Chloe while i was right there waiting for him, hindi ko akalain na si June kaya akong saktan ng ganito i was so hurt because of him kundi ko pa sinundan si Andrei hindi ko malalaman anong ginagawa niya, behind my back he's killing me. akala ko ako lang, akala ko ako na ang mahal niya pero bakit ganun? si chloe parin ang bagsak niya, si chloe parin hanggang ngayon hindi ko ba talaga kayang palitan si Chloe sakaniya?

lagi nalang bang ganito na sinasaktan ako ng taong mahal ko, minahal ko naman siya pero bakit ganun na parang hindi naman sapat ang ginagawa ko para sakaniya? i did alot of things to be enough but seems it wasn't enough, hindi ko talaga siguro mapapalitan na si Chloe ang mahal niya noon at ngayon, now that she's back. it cannot be replace the fact it will be always be chloe. i can't replaced her, hindi ko kayang palitan si chloe.

i came to his parents to look for him, wala siya sa office, i asked his friends no one know where he was so i just came here to find him, baka nandito siya pagkapasok ko palang ay naroon ang ina ni June na nakatayo, she stared on me. alam ko, alam kong ayaw niya sa akin dahil ano? may dugo akong sindikato, before yes but dad change the rule of his clan. he don't kill with mistake, but he kill who deserve death. everything change a lot, for that moment he return.

i maybe had that blood of mafia, blood of rivas but i never killed anyone. i never killed not because i can't but i have rule on myself. i rule as i won't kill anyone because i want, or because i was mad. i maybe shoot them, but not killing i can't put the law on my hands. i can't be in jail because of i placed the law on my hands. no, no way.

“what are you doing here?” tinaasan ako nito ng kilay, alam ko naman na never niya akong tinanggap o tatanggapin i always tried to push myself to them pero siguro nga hindi na mababago ng lahat ang tingin nila sa akin na isa akong anak ng kriminal, my father is not a criminal. he's a good person, i know that he just killed for reasons. he did not mean to kill anyone just for fun. he is not stupid to be like that, we are not.

he just raised his eyebrows to me. “you are and never welcome here, Tracy. you still have the blood of killers.” giit niya sa akin, hindi naman ako nakasagot na palagi nalang bang ganito? killer, they think i'm a killer. that's funny, ano bang magagawa ko kung iyan ang tingin nila sa akin? wala. wala akong magagawa. it's their mind, not mine.

“is june...”

ngumiti siya, but her smile is very creepy. parang kakaiba ang ngiti na 'yon, para bang may mali? yun ang pakiramdam ko sa ngiti niya sa akin. “he's busy with chloe, my future daughter in law. oh, do you know that she was actually alive?” hindi ako umimik, she was laughing habang naglalakad paalis habang ako naman ay walang magawang reaction it hurts that june was with chloe? siguro nga dapat itinitigil ko na ang ano mang mayroon sa akin at kay June.

this should be over.

I don't know what to do so i just drink alone and make myself drunk, gusto kong kalimutan ang lahat ng 'to i want to forget everything ayokong isipin ang mga bagay na nasasaktan ako kay June, this drinks can makes me forget about june and this can makes me feel i can do whatever i want and this makes me feel, i'm free. i'll be free that i'm not locked with being fool for someone.