Star Preston
Today I have my 6 weeks exam Justin and Julia is with me she have to be there so Justin is going to watch her while the mid wife exam me "Mrs.Preston did you have any sexual intercourse before coming here"She asked "No but I do give oral"I said she nodded writing that down "Okay well lets go over here let me check your reflexes and see if you can handle lifting things"She said I nodded I followed her across the room after that she had me to do a small yoga exercise after that she examined Julia "How is she eating I remember you said you weren't breastfeeding is there any reason why that you not saying or you just didn't want too"She asked "I don't feel like talking about it"I said she looked at me then at Justin and Julia "Star you do know that we have to document everything so is that a yes or no is there anything wrong that you don't want to breastfeed"She asked "I said no quit asking damn"I said then ran out crying I can't tell him I just can't it will ruin his image his health then it already has but then I should tell him so I won't lose him to death but I can't have people knowing that I gave him something I thought soon Justin came out with Julia "She finished examining Julia let's go"he said soon we were in the car "What the hell was that"He asked "I don't want to talk about it"I said "Damnit star you always shutting me out tell me you can trust me why don't you want to breastfeed"he asked I started crying "I said can we not talk about it please"I asked "Why not"He asked "Because Im scared"I said tears came down my cheek we were by the rode where no One drove "Why talk to me star stopped pushing everyone out"he said "Because your this famous guy and what my step dad did too me can effect all three of us for the rest of our life"I said "Well I'm not going anywhere if that's what you think"He said "Oh god"I said crying "Is it about health what did your step father do babe ill kill him"He said "Back in high school I remember being in school going to lunch with tom and Carly I fainted I was rushed to the hospital blood work came back that I was HIV Positive"I said crying "I haven't stopped taking me medicine I take them before everyone wakes up so Carly and tom don't know either just me and my doctor now I'm telling you my secret"I said "That's why I said no to breastfeeding and I'm very sorry for not telling you about it when we had consensual sex that time I was pregnant I thought if I didn't think about it it would go away but it didn't I have a watch to set my time so I won't wake anyone in the house"I said he looked at me he grabbed my hand and kissed it "I don't care it happened when he raped you I'm very sorry for questioning you like that but you have to let the mid wife know that "It should be in my files if not then she's stupid or did you write my stuff at the hospital"I asked "I did and thanks for telling me I'll call a doctor to come test me within my house when nobody there just us"he said I nodded he kissed my lips "I still love you star"He said "I love you too"I said he smiled "Let's go to my house I want to cuddle"He said I nodded "Can we get my pills first"I said he nodded "Sure"he said we went to my house to get my pills then went to his house he called a HIV clinic for a home test he hung up "He said they don't normally come to the home and do them but they will for my reputation"He said I nodded "The ways to transfer it is By blood products (unclean needles or unscreened blood).By mother to baby by pregnancy, labor, or nursing (Breastfeeding). By having unprotected vaginal, anal, or oral sex but that's only if I stop taking my meds"I said he nodded he smiled "And I'll still love you I don't care about a little white blood cell as long as you keep taking your medicine then it's going to be okay I promise"He said "What about Julia"I said "Well call the mid wife and see if we can come back immediately and see if she can give us medicine for it can prevent going to Julia"He said I nodded I called the midwife she answered "Star what a present surprise are you willing to Work with me now darling"She asked "Yes I have information that has to do with my relationship and child"I said "Actually I'm free right now we can speak if I come to you right now I'm on my lunch break"She said "Thank you"I said "I'll be over in a jiffy"She said I nodded I told her Justin address soon she came we all three sat in the living room I sighed "The thing is that I have HIV I was scared because I was scared of what he might say or do"I said she nodded "when you left I knew you were a little suspicious so I looked deeper into your health history I also saw that you had an abortion at 16 but you said you haven't had sex since Justin"she asked "Yes that's correct I was raped and abused by my step father for two years before I started fight him off me at 17"I said "I'm very sorry"She said "No it's okay Justin was and is the only guy allowed to touch me"I said she nodded "So is that how you gotten hiv is because of your step father"She asked I nodded "So about my daughter is there like something you can give her"I asked "Well if you were taking your medicine while you where pregnant she shouldn't have hiv but to be on the safe side get her tested also"She said I nodded "Have you got tested yet"She asked "I am tomorrow"he said she nodded "Welll when I leave set her up an appointment with her doctor and they will go from there"She said "Thanks"I said she smiled and left I looked at Julia "I hope you didn't contracted it"I said as I held her she looked at me with her hazel nut eyes "You look like Justin every minute"I said he kissed my cheek "I'll order delivery pizza or what"He asked "Pizza is fine"I said he nodded after the pizza got here he paid them they left I took my medicine Justin put my pill bag in his room he came back picking me up while I had Julia in my arms I kissed him we went and cuddled and went to sleep
