Star Preston
It's been 4 months since the incident and right now Im sitting waiting for my counselor to call my name everyone thought it would be a great idea to talk to someone walked out her office "Mrs.Preston"She said I stood up I went inside her office "How you been"She asked "Not good" I said "How so"she asked "every time I look at my daughter I think back to that day I won't even pick her up she's about 5 months now my fiancé is on tour so she with his mom or my friends a lot I'm just too depressed to do anything only thing I do is eat myself to death then I feel like I'm not good enough for that then I stick my hand down my throat throw that up then I sometimes cut it's like a repeating cycle theses pass months I can't stop thinking about the sexual assault Travis did" I said "How did you forget about what your step father did"she asked "it feels different because when my step father attacked me no one to believe me till I became pregnant with his baby then that's when my mom tried to say I was messing around with boys she still didn't believe me so I had had a dna did on the fetus the had to take dna from my step father because I had accused him of raping me it came back that he was my baby father but he had the hospital switch my hospital chart with someone else's making me believe that he gave me hiv and I got rid of the baby like who wants a rapist baby" I said "I understand that"She said "now it's different because no one believed me then and someone saw and heard everything Travis said to me he threatened to kill my daughter and if he did that then he'll have to die shooting back at the police"I said "Well I'm glad you and your baby are save"She said "I just want to lay down" I said "I know you been feeling depressed and sad about everything and the things your step dad did are coming back to hunt you but baby girl you have a kid and as I can tell by that ring on your finger you about to get hitched you don't have time to to be depressed "Yes I do I need to feel this" I said she nodded "Okay Star"she said after my session I went home I got a calls on my computer I answered "Hey babe" I heard "Huh" I said "Star" I heard I looked at the computer I seen Justin looking at me "Have you been cutting again"he said "No" I said "So what's that on your stomach and legs"he asked "It's nothing" I said getting up getting a jacket "Star Preston"He yelled "Raise that shirt back up"he said I did his eyes widen "what the fucking hell"he said he hung up I cried I went to the mirror I looked I was skinner had cuts almost every he soon texted me "Where's Julia"He said "With Tom and Carly" I said "Why i- never mind"he replied I put my phone down and went to sleep when I was woke up I was shook up I looked up to see Justin above me "I have this day off let's go"he said I got my shoes and went with him we stopped at a restaurant we went in and sat down "How May I help you"The waiter asked "Yes I like the two Enchilada meal and a sprite" I said "And you miss"the waiter said "I'm not really hungry" I said "She's having the same thing with pink lemonade"Justin said he said "Okey everything will be out in a minute to 30 minutes"She said Justin nodded "So I know I left for tour like 3 months ago I left you said you was fine"he said "Well Justin I lied okay I'm not fine" I said "Here go your drinks"the waiter said then walked off "Justin I'm pregnant and I don't know if it's his baby or yours but me and you haven't been having sex" I said "How many months and weeks are you" He asked "I'll be 5 months and 18 weeks tomorrow" I said "So it's my baby" He said "I don't know" I said "That's what hurt depress me the most" I said "Babe we'll get through this"he said "I already got rid of one rapist baby why would I want another one" I said "Look at me star"he said I looked at him "If it's his baby then we'll get the abortion my family don't accept it but if it means that much to you I'll be there with you"He said I smiled "But if it's my baby the baby stays"he said I nodded "So I'll get my lawyer to ask his lawyer to make him do a dna test"He asked I nodded "My lawyer Is your lawyer"He said I nodded the food came I pushed it away "Really"Justin said "I'm not hungry" I said "Babe"He said I shook my head I got up "I'll take this to go"Justin said I walked away from the table I went outside I was walking my mind filled with scooter words I'm nothing then my step dad came into mind when he used to be on top of me then Travis was on top of me "Star"I heard then I was pulled into Justin I then realized I was about to walk into traffic "What the hell star"He yelled "I'm sorry" I said crying "Boss"We heard we seen a guard "Let's go"He said we went home I laid in bed "I'm gonna get Julia"He said I was tired of everything and everyone I looked up to see a guard watching me "Justin wants make sure you safe"He said "Of course he did" I said "Just doing my job"He said I went to sleep soon I felt pressure I woke up to see Julia and Justin "She been over there for three weeks"he said pissed "Well"I said "Seriously Star"He said "Well take her with you or shut the hell up complaining she's somewhere safe"I yelled "Star she needs her mother"he said "I'm depressed and was raped what do you want me to do"I said "I don't know but it's effecting our daughter"Justin said I took my ring off and sat it by him and walked out I sat outside I got up and started walking till I couldn't anymore I looked up I stood in front of my mom house I went to the door I seen my mom sitting in the kitchen but I walked away "Who's there"I heard I stopped I seen mom come to the door "I was just leaving" I said "no"She said I then saw her face "His lawyer told me he tried to take your daughter for leverage" She said I nodded "It was either her or me" I said "but then they tried to kidnap Justin because he has the money"I said "He Told me"She said crying "He Told me he touched you since 15 and said he'll do again if he had the chance"she said "He can't mom where is he"I said "He got out on bail his friend bails him out"she said "Out did you get out"I said "I went against him"she said "Is that how you got that" I said "I'm fine"She said "Right" I said "Im Fine Star"She said "Okey momma" I said "So how you been"She asked "I been good" I said "How's your daughter"She asked "Honestly I don't know" I said she gave a confused look "You don't know"She asked "She been with Justin mother and at Tom house "How is tommy he don't come see his aunt Anymore"She said "He's doing fine mother" I said soon I sat on the step and tears came "You okay"Mom asked "No I'm not okay" I said "I can't get what Larry did out my head and then Justin manager scooter told me I wasn't good enough to be with Justin then I got raped by some guy who been eyeing me at Tom Party and at Justin friend birthday party I can't catch a break and when he was rapping me I had Julia with me he said he'll kill her and have a shoot out with the police till he die and it's all i had to protect her so I did as he said they eventually caught him leaving the store and took me to the hospital and now I'm 5 months pregnant don't know if it's Justin or the rapist the father of my baby" I said crying "I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you"she said I looked at her "I'm hoping we can start over" She said "You put a gun to my head" I said "I'm sorry about that babe" she said we sat there for a minute then a car pulled up "I been looking everywhere for you" I heard I seen Justin then he seen my mom "Come on Star"He said "Bye mom" I said "Bye honey" She said I got in the car we went home "Why did you go there"Justin asked "After everything her and her husband put us through and he raped you"He said "he told her he finally told her then when she kicked him out he beat her so yea Justin I went and saw her because that's where my feet took me I had no where else to go I wanted my mama to hug me"I said "Did she hug you" He asked "no she didn't but she wanted to start over then I reminded her about the gun to the head she apologized saying sorry" I said "But no hug no it's gonna be alright" I said "Damn I pulled you out before y'all could probably"He said I nodded "Are you Willingly to start over with her"He asked "She put a gun to my head threatened to kill me and my unborn baby if I didn't get out her house I can't forget that" I said "There go my protective fiancé" Justin said kissing my forehead I looked at him "I gave you the ring back" I said "You was so mad at yourself you took this off"he said showing me the friendship ring me and Carly have I laughed he did too he held my hand up "This always stays on"He said showing my engagement ring "I love you Star"he said "I'm glad we had a kid"He said I smiled "It's gonna take some time but I'll get there" I said he nodded he kiss me then he kissed my stomach "I love you baby" He said I smiled my family "Boss"his guard said "Yes" He said "Julia woke" He said Justin nodded walking out then came back we sat watching tv as a family
