She's Worth Every Penny

Chapter 11: For the First Time

(Matt's picture is on the right side)----->>>

But we're gonna start by drinking on cheap bottles of wine

Sit talking up all night, saying things we haven't for a while, a while, yeah

We're smiling but we're close to tears, even after all these years

We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time

-'For the First Time by Script (Boyce Avenue Cover)

Matt’s POV

 

I moved my head towards her face “Are you falling for me” I asked her while studying here facial look. Somehow I wanted to take back the question I’d asked or the hurtful words I had said to her. Just seeing how painful for her taking my hateful remark.

She closed her eyes, letting her tears fall. My hand ached, wanting to wipe those tears away. I crave to close my eyes, for it forces not to bear the sight of her heart-wrenching face.

She wiped her tears “Falling for you? Matt, naririnig mo ba ang sinasabi mo?” Inilayo niya ang kanyang mukha sa akin “Would you really believe that I will going to fall for you? Think twice Matt! Why would I be falling for you? You are the most arrogant, selfish man I’d meet.” Her eyes were glinting because of anger “I will never fall for a guy like you! Ever!”

“A guy like me? HUH?!” Hindi ko na rin mapigilan pa ang sarili ko.

“Yes! A guy like you…” She’s holding herself not to cry again “A guy like you, who’s pathetic heartless douchebag jerk!”

 Nanlilisik ang mata ko dahil sag alit “You don’t know about me Collin, you don’t fucking know about my life!” Hinawakan ko siya sa braso “Hindi mo alam pinagdaanan ko sa buhay, dahil sa iyong ama!”

Pilit niyang kumalas sa aking mga kamay “Pero may kasalanan ba ako? May kasalanan ba ako sa nagawa ni papa sa buhay mo?!”

Hindi ako makasagot. Para bang nilalamon ako ng galit ko, galit sa sarili at galit sa kanaraan.

“Magsalita ka! Magsalita ka, gago ka!” Hindi na niya mapigilang maiyak “May kasalanan ba ako sa mga nangyari sa buhay mo?”

Tiningnan ko siya, nakatitig lang ako habang siya naman ay umiiyak.

May kasalanan ba siya sa mga nangyari noon? Bakit sa tanong na iyon mas lalo lang akong lumalambot? I feel fucking guilty! Maybe the reality is now creeping to me, telling me something in my heart.

“I just wanna go home…” Kalma na ngayon ang kanyang boses.

Kahit wala ako sa sarili, pinaandar ko yung sasakyan. We drove quietly towards home. Wanting to scream as the silence is killing me.

‘Now Matt….you are losing the right track’ the anger in me whispered to my head.

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Hindi ako makatulog, mag-isa na naman ako sa kama. Pinili ni Collin na matulog mo na siya sa guest room. Kanina, nang nasa bahay na kami ay agad na siyang umakyat sa patungo sa guest room. Gusto ko man kausapin siya, pero nilalamon ako ng pride ko.

‘I will never fall for a guy like you! Ever!’

‘A guy like you, who’s pathetic heartless douchebag jerk!’