This is how I disappear.

Chapter 14

The next morning, I woke up with my arm wrapped around Frank on the sofa. We must have fallen asleep on the sofa after watching the movies. I looked down at Frank who was fast asleep with his hair over his eyes, his head was resting on my chest with his arm hung loosely around my waist.

I gently placed a kiss on the top of his head before slowly detangling myself from his body leaving him to sleep on the sofa. I walked to the kitchen to make my daily cup of coffee and also making Frank one as well.

I walked in to see my mum leaning against the kitchen counter on her phone with the kettle boiling next to her.

"Morning" I mumbled as I went to stand next to her

"Good morning" She smiled as she placed her phone on the counter leaving it open for me to see the screen. She walked to pour the coffee into the three mugs in front of her

"Frank has coffee right?" She said as she stirred the spoon. I hummed in response as I glanced at her phone with slight curiosity.

I took one glance and saw some text messages from a guy named Joe, I didn't think much of it but as I looked back I saw the text messages. My mum spoke up as I stared at the phone and the text messages

"So, what is it with you and Frank honey?" She asked

"Oh, uhh yeah yeah we're just..." My mind couldn't think straight, the text messages that I was seeing made me so confused "...We're just, I don't know. It's complicated"

The texts read,

'I can't wait to see you after work xxx'

'neither can I love you xxx'

As I finished reading through the texts my mum turned around and handed me a hot cup of coffee, but as I stared at her blankly she looked at me confused.

"So do you?" She repeated, snapping me out of my thoughts

"Uhh, what?" I questioned as I blew on the coffee so it would cool down quicker

"Do you like Frank" she took a sip of her coffee while she kept eye contact with me the whole time. I felt my cheeks burn as she asked me the question, I did, I know I did but I couldn't tell my mum that because she would go crazy.

I couldn't think straight and answer a simple question, my mind was still focused on the text messages on her phone.

"Oh, erm No n-no mum" I looked down and carefully sipped my coffee.

Straight after I had said that Frank walked in with sleepy eyes and looked up at me. His eyelids were heavy as he yawned and scrunched his face up and came to stand next me. I wondered if he had heard our conversation about him, I hoped not.

"Morning Frankie" I said as I looked down and smiled

"Here's you're coffee Frank" My mum handed over his coffee as he took it with both hands

"Thankyou, you're a saint" He giggled and took a sip. I don't know why but I couldn't take my eyes off him, he was so cute when he was sleepy with his yawns every now and then and his sleepy eyes and gentle smile. He noticed me staring and nudged me slightly, I blinked at him and blushed as I looked up at my mum.

"So uhh when- what are you doing after work?" I asked, nervous to know the answer, well I knew the answer but I don't know what i'd do if she lied to me. Or has she already lied to me about the past few days?

"Oh, I think I have to cover another shift..." She made no eye contact, and that's when I knew. I knew she had lied to me and I hated liars. I let out an annoyed sigh and looked down at my coffee, Frank had noticed and looked up at me with a curious look, I shook my head gently and looked back at my mum who had her bags ready and her coffee in her hand ready for work.

"Whatever, i'll see you later tonight" I could feel myself getting more pissed off and angry that she had lied, who was this guy she was with and why does she have the need to hide it away from me?

I stormed away from the kitchen putting my coffee down before running up the stairs and flopping on the bed and letting out a mental scream. I then heard the door slam and Frank run up the stairs and into my room.

"Gee? You okay?" He said quietly as he sat next me. I felt bad when I saw him look at me, his face was sad and he wouldn't make eye contact with me.

"Frankie...I-" before I could finish my sentence he had cut me off

"Gee, I know if you regret kissing me and-I mean I get it if you..." I had realised what he had said and interrupted his nervous mumbling as I cupped his face with my hand and placed a soft kiss on his lips. He instantly relaxed as I pulled away and we looked into each others eyes.

His face was still sad, and I knew there was something that was on his mind and I was going to find out what it was

"Frankie?" He looked up and flashed me a weak smile "what's wrong?"

"It's nothing" He looked back down and pulled on his hoodie sleeve

"Nothing is making you so anxious?" I said as I raised an eyebrow. He shook his head without replying or making eye contact

"Then tell me what it is" I put my hand on top of his that was pulling on the material and he looked up and smiled a sad smile.

"T-this morning, before I walked into the kitchen, I heard you and your mum talking"

I fucking knew he heard us, and I knew it would hurt him.

"She asked you if you like me and you said no..." He looked at me with his sad adorable eyes and I just wanted to hug him, just hold him in my arms forever. But he was hurt, and it was my fault.

I hung my head low and shook my head

"D-do you really not like me, Gee?" He said quietly

I felt my heart smash in an instant, I felt my heart pound and my cheeks burn. I hated it that I made him feel so sad and upset, but It wasn't the truth, I did like him and I had to tell him. But my head was still half distracted by my mums texts, I completely froze as I opened my mouth to say something and no noise came out, it was just silence.

I hadn't looked back up at Frank yet and I couldn't look at his sad eyes, I just couldn't.

I felt his weight lifted from the bed as I then looked up and saw him walk out of my bedroom as I stared blankly at him.

I looked at the empty door way as I felt my heart hurt and I suddenly got all sweaty and nervous. I was upset, confused, angry and I just wanted Frank to hug me, that's all I wanted.

I managed to form words as I realised that I needed Frank and I couldn't let him walk away with him thinking a lie was the truth. I couldn't let him walk away thinking I didn't like him because I really did.

"W-wait."