Quiet Lauren/You

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"So, you know my brother from practice?" I ask starting a conversation. Also I'm really confused about them knowing each other without anybody noticing it. He always tells us when he meets someone new and then our parents want to know everything about them and sometimes they even invite them. But this time he didn't say a word. And Camila, she knew about Y/N meeting someone new on her own and wasn't like OMG my baby is growing up towards us. This is so confusing. But maybe I'm just overthinking everything. It has to be a strange coincidence. I didn't realize that I'm so deep in my thoughts until Y/N carefully touches my arm.

Your Pov.

"So, you know my brother from practice?" Lauren asks and I answer her yes. But she seems to be in deep thought and doesn't even realize that I answered her. Is something wrong? Should I have told her that I just met a Chris when she told me about her siblings? Did I do something wrong? Lauren still just stares into the blank space so I decide to touch her arm so she hopefully snaps out of her trance. When she finally looks at me she immediately cups my face with her hands and looks at me worried. "Is everything okay, Y/N?" "That's what I wanted to ask you." I say a bit shaky and put one of my hands on hers. "I just spaced out nothing big. But you look really worried so what's going on in this wonderful mind of yours that makes you all worried?" Lauren asks me. "It's just you spaced out and I feared that I did something wrong and...and I don't want you to leave me. I...I every time I'm having difficults I fear that you realize that I'm indeed a freak and that you'll leave me because I'm not worth your time." I admit hoping she won't leave me. Her hands move back to her bod while Lauren looks at me with an unreadable face. "Sorry, that was too much. I understand if you have enough of me...I'm just too much of a failure." I say and look down at my feet hoping that I could teleport myself out of this cab to run away from the oncoming pain. "Y/N." Lauren says but I look down. "Y/N." She tries again but I still look down. The next time she says my name she carefully grabs my face and turns it towards hers and before I can say something she kisses me. "Like I told you before, I love you with all your flaws and you could never be a waste of time, you are so beautiful and worth it. For nothing in the world I would want to live without you." She tells me still cupping my face and her lips just millimetres from mine. But the only thing I realize is that she loves me. She loves me. Lauren fucking Jauregui loves me. "You love me?" Is the only thing I ask and for a moment Lauren looks at me shocked like she said it without wanting it but then she nods. "Yeah Y/N, I love you with all my heart and I want to be there for you all the time so please tell me everything that is wrong and of course also the good things. Because I love and need you." She states and I can't help but crack a huge smile. "There was never somebody who said something like that to me expect Cami and my mom and there are you coming into my life stealing my heart without even having to try and you tell me that you are there for me and everything is so unbelievable great. I love you too, Lauren. And even if it makes me blush I will call you babe more often because it makes you smile and I like you all smiley." I answer her and at the word babe she automatically smiles.

After our little great ride with the taxi we sit on my bed. More like I sit and Lauren sits between my legs her head resting half on my shoulder half on my boobs, my left hand is holding hers, while she draws various patterns on my leg with her right hand.

"I like that." "What?" Lauren asks and stops drawing patterns on my leg to face me. "I like that. Just sitting here with you and being all comfortable, even when I slowly begin to think that we maybe should do something like talk or eat or watch a movie or make out." I joke which causes Lauren to roll her eyes but also laugh. "I like that too and I vote for watching a movie and cuddling with a lot of making out." She smirks and it's the first time I just feel confident and good, no insecurity. "That sounds really good. We should decide which movie to watch like really fast because if we don't we probably just make out. Not that I'm complaining but I have a really immature and not knowing what privacy means best friend who probably just walks in again but when there is a movie she will see the movie first..." I trail off and Lauren just laughs before kissing me. While Lauren works on my neck I try to focus on the movie plan, but how is someone supposed to be able to concentrate when Lauren Jauregui is leaving marks on their neck. Wait...marks. Fuck. "Lauren, is my neck covered with love bites?" I ask already knowing the answer. "Maybe." She answers before she continues nibbling on my skin. Because I know that we won't focus on a movie I just turn on the Tv before turning us around so that Lauren lays underneath me. Her hands automatically find their way under my shirt while mine are positioned besides her head to hold me up. "I don't want to ruin the mood but I kind of forgot that I have an appointment today." Lauren looks at me confused and tightens her grip around my waist. "Can't you cancel it so that we can cuddle?" She asks with pleading eyes but I just shake my head. "No, it's with Dr Marten, she is my psychologist and I kind of forgot to write in my therapy diary. I can't cancel her and tell her the next meeting hey I forgot to do the thing that is supposed to help me..." "Psst, everything is okay baby girl. There were a lot of things going on the past few days which is the reason why you didn't have time to do it and also I will go with you. I mean I will go with you to her office and wait till your appointment is over and then we will go back and order some pizza or Chinese and really watch a movie." Lauren quickly says and I think I get happier and happier every minute with her. "That sounds great and thanks for the love bites now I'm going to walk into her office and the first thing she will do is raise an eyebrow at me and smile this I'm so happy but you have to tell me everything." I explain and Lauren apologetically kisses my nose. "I still love you. I'm going to change before we go, do you want to change too?" I ask her and Lauren nods. I tell her to just pick something from my closet, while I grab a nice orange flannel and my distressed denim jacket. Quickly I strip out of my hoodie and put on the flannel and then again the hoodie, now you can see parts of the flannel under the hoodie. After that I put on my denim jacket and look at Lauren who is wearing my favourite Hoodie. When I wear the hoodie it's a bit oversized but when Lauren it wears it's nearly a dress but she looks so cute. "You look so cute." I say somehow not caring that I just said that which makes Lauren blush. "You don't look that bad yourself." She jokes and pulls me down to kiss me. "I think we have to go." She states and I nod.

A few minutes later...okay half an hour later we are in the waiting room and I get kinda nervous. I mean I love Lauren and she gives me so many reasons to try new things but she is also my biggest fear. More like I fear that I'll lose her and I have to talk to Dr Marten about that. "Y/N, you can come in now." I hear Dr Martens' assistance voice and make my way towards the room of course after kissing Lauren one more time.

"Hello Y/N. I hope you had a good time since I last saw you. I would like to talk about the people in your life with you and I think we can start with maybe your girlfriend if I get that right." She states motioning to the love bites on my neck which makes my face go really red. "It was really eventful and yeah I have a girlfriend and she is a big part of everything that happened. But it all began with Camila and her millionth try to get me go with her to her friends and this time I gave in..." And with that I told her everything from being persuade to meet Camilas friends over being in the hospital to loving Lauren. All she did was listen, nod and make a few notes. "I'm indeed really happy for you, but you said something about Lauren also being your biggest fear. Could you please explain that for me?"

Laurens Pov.

After an hour Y/N comes out of the room again and walks straight towards me. Smiling like an idiot.