minghao had been basically walking in circles for the past hour
he was so scared, they had exactly 48 hours before 1 person would be left standing- or they would all be dead
minghao's back hit the wall before slowly sliding towards to the ground
he was worthless
he already knew it, his mother had told him that all the time, minghao was diagnosed with depression long ago and she was disgusted. he didn't have any siblings or anyone he would trust to help him
he really wanted to explore the world, and most importantly dance. that's all he wanted. but he knows now it's to late and everything is over
he could just end it all like what he tried to do last year but when he was in the mental hospital, he had learned suicide is wrong, he would have to write an essay everyday saying how he's talented, amazing, and handsome
though all of it worked and soon after 2 months, he was able to leave.
but now he felt useless, like everything he had done in life hasn't made him happy at all
just a couple reasons why he should end it all
minghao felt his eyes tear up, and his stomach crunched at the aching feeling of sadness
his loud sobs caused mingyu to run over to his friend (he had been walking through the hallway and heard minghao) he sat next to minghao and looked over to him
'a-are you okay? please don't cry' mingyu softly said, wiping his tears
'mingyu. do you ever feel like you want to die?' minghao said innocently as mingyu softly glared at him
'yeah, like right now' he stated as minghao frowned
'why do you want to die?' minghao asked as mingyu rubbed his head
'wonwoo will never love me again, he's everything to me and now i can't do anything to win him back, and now my life feels useless'
'oh wow i feel the same way, but i though jun was the only friend i had and i feel so sad...' he added
'we'll, i know this sounds stupid, but do you want to die together? if you don't i understand but, look, we're ganna die anyways, what's the point for hope anymore?' he said as minghao clutched mingyu's arm and nodded yes
'do you still have your gun?' mingyu asked as minghao slowly nodded
mingyu took out his gun and so did minghao, both pointing the gun at opposite directions
'okay, let's say something we like and something we dislike about our selfs and on three we pull the trigger' mingyu said shaking a bit as minghao nodded
'o-okay, I like jun, chinese food, and dancing... what i hate is jun, mean people, and clingy people' minghao softly and slowly said
'i like cooking, rapping, singing, dancing, wonwoo, my looks, art, clingy people, hugs, love, attention, and so much more! what i dislike is rude things that people make to go against society' mingyu smiled as minghao almost adored him
'you love so many things, why end it all?' minghao asked as mingyu chuckled
'just because i love a lot of things doesn't mean i love my life, verbal, physical, emotional abuse and the lack of wonwoo is not worth living' he said as minghao felt tears stream his face
'well, i guess this is it?' he said as mingyu's eyes turned red. all that could be heard was their heavy breathing. they were shakiness (mostly mingyu) and slowly gazed into each other's eyes
'minghao, your such a good person, just know that i really love you.'
'me too'
hana
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within that moment, they had both pulled the trigger
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actually this is sad lol
but here's a gif (t) ;))
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I MADE A JUNHAO BOOK AND IM ABT TO UPDATE SO U CAN CHECK THAT OUT AND U CAN GET A GOOD SUCC FROM MY SISTER (not me bcs i am pure) ALSO SHES 8 LMAO
