Nick Carter:Single Dad

Chapter 29

ONE MONTH LATER

Nick's POV

As we begin to plan our wedding I start to get a little distant and I stop caring about the planning I begin to think about what mine and Amanda's wedding might have been like. The location, our vows, our friends and family being there and what she would have looked like in her dress I was starting to have second thoughts about marrying Mal I sigh then look out at her playing with Landon and Adam. I did love her and have feelings for her but now I just wasn't sure about taking this next step anymore I knew I would have to talk to her and tell her before we did anymore planning.

Mallory's POV

After Landon and Adam are sleeping for the night I go to the living room and sit down on the couch with Nick. I pick up a wedding magazine then start looking through it I hear Nick sigh then he looks over at me "we need to talk." I put down the magazine and start to get worried about what's fixing to be said. "Everything okay?" he shakes his head "I'm having second thoughts about all of this I can't do it I'm not ready I thought I was I do love you and want you here." He wanted me in his house, I could take care of his son and we could sleep together but he couldn't marry me. His second thoughts had to be from us moving too fast with our relationship or I had just been a bounce back for him. I had my own fears when we started this relationship and we got serious now all my fears were coming true. "I think I should sleep in the guest room for a while goodnight Nick." I leave the living room and go to the guest room shutting the door behind me then I let the tears fall.

Nick's POV

I walk in the kitchen the next morning and see breakfast already made but Mal and the kids were nowhere in sight I sigh then eat I look over and pick up Mal's engagement ring. I pick it up then walk outside and see her watching Landon and Adam play with Buddy I walk over then stand next to her. "I bought this ring for you it has our initials on the band I want you to keep it." She sighs then looks at me. "I can't keep the ring or wear it knowing you have doubts about this." She walks over to the boys and I start to feel bad I thought I was moving on I didn't understand why I was having second thoughts. I love Mal

Kevin's POV

I open the door and Nick walks in I can tell that something is wrong with him he sits on the couch then looks up at me. "Mal gave me her engagement ring back I told her I've been having second thoughts." I walk over then sit down next to him What happened? You were happy I thought you loved Mal?" he runs his hands through his hair. "I do I just go to thinking about Amanda and what our wedding might have been like." Now I knew what was going on. "Nick it's understandable if you're nervous or having doubts anyone would. It's hard starting to over after losing the person you love, but don't be guilty Amanda would want you to be happy. Don't be scared there's nothing to fear."

Nick's POV

I sigh as I sit down in front of Amanda's grave I look at the stone then run my hands through my hair. "I'm sorry that it's been so long since I've visited you I miss you. Adam is doing great he's walking now he turned one back a few months ago, I've met someone she has a son named Landon, I love her I even proposed to her but I start having second thoughts." I sit and continue to pour my heart out. "I know you would want me to be happy but I started thinking about you and our wedding I just need a sign that I'm doing the right thing." The wind starts blowing and I catch the scent of her perfume. I had my sign it was her way of letting me know I could let go and move on now to fix what I did.