Benifits

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Imani's pov

Why do I do this to myself.why do I keep going back him.why didn't I listen when she said he was using me.it should have been a one time thing but I got lost in his eyes,fell for his smile and what do I get for it .TEARS. im done with him I'm done with everyone and everything.i wipe my tears and fix my make-up. I headed for my locker but he was already there waiting looking like adorable sad little puppy.i didn't have time for this so I took a breath and went for my locker I opened it got what I needed and left he talked but I didn't listen. im done listening to people it's a waste of time and I didn't feel like listening to a teacher so I kept walking.i heard him call me I heard him yell I heard him stop walking behind I heard him walk away.guess I'm not that important. I walked till I couldn't anymore and ended in the football stadium and I looked around no one was here so I made myself comfy.i had my headphones on so I didn't hear him call me but I smelled the weed I turned and a guy was there name was Cody he was like the school drug dealer kinda I guess.i stared at him while he talked I didn't hear a word he said and he knew it too because he pulled my headphones down

Cody:it's pretty rude to not listen when being spoken to

Imani: well I'm tired of listening so I don't really care

He smiled it was nice very different from roc's but still nice

Cody:it was wrong what he did to you no one should be treated like that

Imani:*smiles and chuckles*sad part is I'll probably go back to him.it always happens he fucks up we stop talking then I come back it's been like that since we met

Cody:*takes a long hit of his blunt before putting it out*well you should stop cause it seems like your either addicted to sex or you love him and both are bad for you

Imani:yea i guess they both are

cody:come with me*stands and offers me his hand*

imani:*takes hand*where are going

cody:just follow me

he pulled me up and we went to the parking lot and we stopped at a black dodge charger and he pushed me up against the passenger side and got close to my face and put his head in the crook of my neck

cody:smile now

i didn't know what was going on but i smiled then i heard roc call my name and pushed Cody so that he fell i went to help him up but roc blocked my way by putting his arm on the car.i looked up annoyed not wanting to look at him and i tried to go the other way but he blocked that way too i took a deep breath and crossed my arms and looked at his cupids bow.i couldn't look into his eyes or at his lips i just couldn't

roc:so you on to the next dude so what was the four years we spent together

hes trying to get me to look into his eyes he knows that i couldn't stay mad if i did i kept avoiding eye contact till he ran his fingers through my hair and his hand went all the way down to my lower back and he put pressure that he knew that was my spot.ugh i fucking hate this dude i looked him directing in the eye and i pushed him off me 

imani:what do you want from me.i said i loved you but that wasn't enough, i had sex with you but that wasn't enough what the fuck do you want from me

i was about to start hitting him but Cody came and pulled me back and put me in his car then got in the driver side and drove off I turned the radio up to drown my own thoughts luckily the rapper music was loud and wasn't about nothing but getting paid and fucking. cody stopped at a gas station and turned the car off and filled the tank up.i also got out and i went inside to get some snacks i got at least 4 bags of candy,6 bags of chips and 1 mega sized cup of soda and i small can of soda for Cody. i payed for it and saw Cody talking to really big guy with a black tank top and some basketball shorts. Cody saw me looking and they walked off i started walking to the car and got inside and started eating when Cody got in i gave him the small cam and he in between me and the snacks but eventually shrugged it off and drove off i tole him where i lived and we pulled up shortly after

imani:so you wanna come in or you gonna go on a magical adventure

cody:mmm ill go on a magical adventure

imani:well have fun...thanks

i didn't give him time to respond when i got out the car and and went inside i went directly to my room ignoring the fact that my brothers had girls over.when i got to my room i closed and locked the door and turned on some music and turned it up loud and just screamed and cried and hit stuff.i basically trashed my room but i didn't care till i notice my hand and foot was bleeding i looked down and saw that i knocked over a gift roc gave me it was lingerie with something glass i never wore it or even looked at it because i didn't want his gifts i just wanted his love.i started laughing as the pain went through my body and my knees gave out and i kept laughing even as the pain started taking over i kept laughing till everything went black