The world the girl saw - Reiner Braun x Reader (Attack on Titan)

Honest words

He stared at you while you were fighting with the thoughts how long you have been out, you never imagined that your injury would be this fatal that you were out for 8 months... Reiner took another step towards you and sit down on the bed looking at your face.

"How much do you remember?" he asked curious, you shook your head

"Nothing really... the last thing I know is.. I saw Levi killing you... I mean I thought he did, he cut your neck..." he closed his eyes

"Yeah... he almost succeeded, but I was able to save myself thanks to my titan powers" you were so happy that he was alive but tried to hide it, it was quiet for a minute before you spoke again

"Why am I tied? Are you scared that I would escape...?" Reiner looked at your hands and then at your face

"Forgive me, but this was the only way they let you stay here" you looked at him confused

"They? Who said that?" his eyes looked away hiding something

"Where am I? this is not... inside the walls right?" he nodded

"We are at my hometown on the other side of the ocean..." your eyes widened

"W-What? Why did you bring me here??" he was nervous you could tell from his behavior

"I had no choice... if I would left you there they would probably target you because of me" you did not understand

"What?? Why would they?? I did not do anything?? Didn't I?? please take these ropes off of me" he stood walking around in circles, he was definitely hiding something from you

"I can not do that, if I... they would kill you" you stopped struggling

"Who?? What did I do?" he run his hand through his hair

"Please tell me, I don't know what's going on here, where is everyone? What happened to my friends?" he finally stopped

"Forgive me for dragging you into this mess, I promise I will fix it and save you but as long as I.... I have to settle things first until then you have to stay here in this room..." you looked sadly at him trying to suppress your tears

"But... why can't you tell me? I don't care how horrible it is I just want to know what happened" he walked back to the bed and kneeled down next to you

"I promise that I will tell you everything, just give me some time... " you saw the shaking of his eyes and knew that the situation was not easy for him, he was in some deep trouble that's why you decided to calm down and give him the time

"Alright, I will wait, but please... take off these ropes, my shoulder hurts really bad" his eyes twitched knowing how bad the injury was

"Ok, but please... don't do anything stupid" you nodded as he slowly started to loosen the ropes. Your hands were free but you could not move at all because of the posture you were in for so long, you held your shoulder feeling the pain running through your body. Reiner saw how painful it was and he felt so guilty because it was his fault after all.

"Let me have a look" he insisted and gently touched your arm, you stay still and let him slide down the oversized shirt from your shoulder, the wound was already healed but a large scar was left behind, he gently traced it with his thumb which let you shiver. His skin was so warm and gentle, you watched him and saw the expression on his face

"I am so sorry!" he apologized with shaking eyes

"I am so terribly sorry for what I have done to you!" your heart started beating faster and you were frozen before him, his body was trembling, he felt so guilty for what he did. Without any hesitation you lifted your hands and pulled him into a deep hug to calm him, his head rested on your good shoulder and you whispered calming words into his ear. His hands finally moved and closed in around your waist to bring you closer, you never were this close to him but it did not feel wrong at all. Reiner buried his hands into your shirt and breathed heavily, you run a hand through his silky soft blond hair and calmed his tensed body.

"I never blamed you for what happened, if only I had stayed out of the way you would not have to feel guilty now! If only I would have been able to control my emotions back then I could have saved you!" he pulled you even closer

"No! it's my fault that you got involved, if only I had acted earlier I could have saved you and taken you away, but instead I made your life worse and brought you here under different circumstances that won't allow me to be with you" his words let your heart jump and you blushed, he noticed your emotions and even if he felt the same way he did not take the next step. He was too scared that he would break you even more than you already were, with admitting these feelings he would make you suffer and that was the last thing he wanted. If this was over then he could finally confess everything that was going on inside his heart but right now keeping you safe was the top priority he had to take care of. He slowly let go of you and placed both his hands on your shoulder making you look at him

"I promise, when this is over we get away from this place together... we start a new live somewhere no one knows us, just you and me" he gently pulled out the necklace from his pocket and placed it around your neck, he had taken it off before bringing you here, everything you were wearing was taken away from you so he made sure that the necklace was not taken away.

"I have made a lot of mistakes ever since I met you, I have lied to you and caused you pain, I never thought that I could ever change... my heart was corrupted with hatred and fear but after I became friends with you I started to open my eyes again and see this world from a different side. I know this might sound strange after all I destroyed so many peoples lives but I had to do what I had to do... this mission was given to us and I wanted to finish it no matter what the price was, I used Eren and everyone's kindness to fool them, even you I planed to kill along with everyone... but when I was about to cross this line something stopped me from doing it. I wanted too so badly but I just could not do it, I let chances slip through my fingers so many times that I am not worthy of my title anymore. Right now I am nothing more than a coward who does not know what is right and what is wrong anymore, I have to find out the answer for myself only then I am able to move on. I am not asking you to forgive me but I want you to understand my reasons, I was not born evil, I have a heart and emotions but they are unstable that's why I can't see through to my real self, I know I have no right to ask you this and you don't have to do it if you don't want to but... please I want you to help me find my true self. I want to know who I really am and be able to smile again, I am not asking to be forgiven for my sins, no, I want to learn how to live with them" His words were honest and you were overrun by them but happy, you knew he had a good heart but he was always acting like he was a bad person, this confession of his sins only confirmed his good heart and you were happy to hear him talking to you in such a way. He did not seek your forgiveness he only wants you to understand him and accept him the way he was, but even if he hadn't told you this at all you already accepted him with all his mistakes and loved him from the bottom of your heart.