When Im depressed,
Thoughts of suicide were almost in my head 24/7,
Thingking,
Why should I continue my live?
I'm hopeless, there's no future for me,
I don't even have the will to look forward on what the future brings for me,
I just eventually lost the ability to live,
So why am I still alive? What's my purpose?
Cause what I feel is just like walking in the clouds, all is hollow I can feel the emptiness, that just leads me to holding a knife,
But, I thank god and my friends,
They are angel in disguise,
Whenever I want to commit suicide there's them, messaging me or talking to me and reminding me how great am I,
Really, when Im depressed I really wanna commit suicide because it feel like Im easy to kill on those days,
So I usually ended up locking myself
In my room,
Because I don't want someone seing me on those state,
Usually when depression hits me hard,
I sleep in the bathroom or in a corner, because I feel like my bed is damn big gor me, plus I find the darkness comforting in those times, you can actually picture me like those typical crazy girls in the movies,
(In the corner, crying and with a messy hair, whispering "pls stop! I'm too tired" but my eyes seems to have a brain on its own and just keeps on pouring drops of water.)
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The Monster Within Me
Short StoryI have this other side within me, He is a monster called depression. What's it is like to have a depression? Are you curious? This is a true story of mine, And how my life before and after I got my depression. This is my free book, So don't expect...
