Diary of a College Senior

Oct 17 - Midterm Mode is turning into a disaster.

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

I feel so accomplished having survived another packed Tuesday.

In the morning, I had to write a quiz for my water resources class and then a midterm for the construction class. During lunch, it was off to finish an assignment due at 2 pm, which I ultimately decided to give up on because my brain just couldn't think anymore. After that, it was off to a lab session which had a difficult assignment that took Addie and I the full three hours to finish.

As for other news, midterm season is officially in full swing and I have put myself in 'midterm mode'. This is a lifestyle that involves about four hours of sleep every night and an abundance of Red Bulls.

For some reason, this semester I am having an especially hard time staying in 'midterm mode'. I keep getting distracted whenever I am studying.

Just yesterday, I couldn't take it anymore and took out the guitar. I had been obsessing with one of Paramore's old songs lately and just HAD to learn it. So I did. It's called 'Only Exception' and playing the beautiful acoustics felt so satisfying. But it took up an hour of my time when I was supposed to be studying. And now I think I did horrible on the midterm today because I couldn't answer half the questions properly.

After the lab, I finally had a chance to breathe so Addie and I went to the cafeteria to grab some ice cream and catch up with each other.

I told her I no longer want to aim for a 3.0 GPA. In the beginning of the year, I thought that I should so I could have grad school as an option in the unlikely case that I decide to get a masters. (Got to keep those options open, you know?). But now I realized it's too much stress and unless I want to drop all my side projects, I will never be able to obtain that GPA.

The more I thought about it, the more I realized the only reason I want to go to grad school is because I like research work out of all the other options available. And the only reason I like research work is because it involves working on your own projects, writing about them, and then publishing papers. Which now leads me to think I should work in the technical communication field.

It sounds like an exciting and novel idea. But I have no idea how I will even get there, or if it will work out. Maybe I will have more clarity in a few months time.